I can do it!!!!!

Yes. I am joining. Tomorrow is the BIG DAY.

* breathing heavily *

I know, its nervewracking. But Ill deal with it.

My superpowers will come out soon and I shall conquer. Yes I will.




By the way, we had our Araw ng Wika today. I wore a pink Filipiniana dress with matching pink heels.. I wanted to post a picture here but i just could not get a decent pic. Hees.

Boo! This day is bad. My stupid pink heels caused me a sore feet. Worse, my pink Fil. dress got a ......
you know it. [its a girl thing] C;

But i dealt with the fiasco. Thank God i made it through the day. Uh-huh.
Im currently researching for tomorrow.

Yaaay... 5 more day til the University Week. Ill tell you the details next time. Tootles.

The Problem :C

I have this huge problem. (Yeah. Its funny because my last post was really happy and now im posting a problematic one. )

I am once again stuck in a stiuation where i am forced to do something i dont want to. They are joining me in this big Impromptu Speaking contest and i dont know what to do. Im scared. I cant do it. I really cant.

Well im confident that i could speak but the problem is, i dont know what to say. Im not good in forming ideas on the spot. I need time to sit down and internalize. And Impromtu Speaking Contests have stupid time limits that shall surely make me go mad. I cant. I cant.

And just think of who the other contestants will be. Theyre probably really good at this. I mean, i am still raw while theyre already cooked. Some are even over cooked.

I ask my friends. They say i should because I can. But i know myself too much. I know my weaknesses. This is my weakness. Im not good in making logical answers to tricky questions in just a jiffy. And i am about to nuts.

This thing will be on the 31st. Yes. Four more days. Whenever i remember it, i feel this weird feeling that i pretty much dont like. Its just like having a million butterflies on your stomach.
But what i feel is far worse than that. I feel like i have a billion dragonflies on my fat stomach. And i hate it.

My teacher is giving me a choice whether to join or not. But i can hardly feel i have a choice. If i dont join, its a proof that im a coward. If i do, Ill only humiliate myself.

Plus, its the same contest my sister Abegail joined in. She won a silver medal in the National Level. It makes me feel even worse. Just one word.. pressure.

My time is running out. And i cant decide. This is huge. Really huge.

A part of my brain says that i could do it.
While another part of it says to back off.
which is which?

when i opened my diary a while ago, I found this qoute written on the first page of my journal.

Have faith. Believing something is possible is to make it come true.

It hit me really hard. Its true.

*thinking*

I am like this happy

Yaayy!!!! I am done. So what do you think?

Well, at first, I thought that Adobe PS was very very weird and hard but like i told you before, im not the kind of person who takes a million years to figure out something(humility aside) and yes, after 3 days, i have cracked the Adobe Code. And i am darn happy. I thought id never be able to finish my layout since the code was giving me such a hard time. But with a gift from Heaven ( yes, i prayed that my template wont be a mess.hmm.. the power of prayer) i have conquered.

Golly, i am overreacting. I know. But this is just an achievement because i used to rely on www.blogskins.com and now i am independent.

The concept of this skin is all about the different perceptions of people on me. The multicolored pictures signify their different impressions. Pink, black blue.. whatever.

Just try to read between the lines and youll get it. ;D
Please post in my cbox if youve got something to say. You will really make me happy.
Violent reactions are accepted.


Ps.
I have a big problem.

I NEED TO SLEEP!
*reposted with corrections

I feel restless, exhausted, tired as a farmer in a rice field. I should be in bed, drooling. But here I am stressing my eyes in front the computer. I have been breaking my rule of not sleeping past 12 midnight for almost a week now. What do I do? * ehem * Study. Examination week has just ended. And it drained all my super powers.

I dont really get myself. I start studying around 8 in the morning but how come I always end up still cramming in the wee hours.
Its so unfair.
I sacrifice my time and build up eyebags for decent grades while people take it for granted and still get good marks. How crazy is that?
Like when I tell people …

Pulaw ko gab-i.[I slept late last night]
Ngaa haw? [why?]
Tuon e.[studying, of course.]
Ay teh. Wala ko gani tuon pero taas man score ko.[Ha! I didn’t study but I got a high score]

What an irony.
But its reality.
Now I know, truth hurts.
Biatchiness.


I dont feel any good vibes regarding the exams. I didnt follow instructions in Chemistry, was clueless in English and much much more clueless in History.

My gaawwwd, [just trying to sound stupid] teachers can be like so cruel. Like hello? I studied ka-yaaa tapos like ganun pala yung like exams. They give me like euwy wrinkles.

That is sooo not haawwtt.

Conclusion—don’t try being a nerd when you can’t live up the name.
I guess I was not born a nerd. Like whatever.

Anyways, blogger is giving me such a hard time. Screw you blogger!!! They page would download but the portion where you input your username and password could not. Like hello?? Stupidity.

Another thing, I just find Photoshop really complicated. I am not the type of person taking a million years to figure out something but I could not figure out Photoshop. Like hello?? Ignorance.

And one more thing, I am trying to make my own layout because I want to be unique. So what Im doing is ripping out blogskins from http://www.blogskins.com/. Like hello?? Cruelty.

Alright. Enough of likes and hellos. Like hello?? Immaout.


Ps.
Please include in your
prayers Guimaras for it
is greatly affected by the Oil spill.
Coral reefs and sea animals are killed.
Like hello?? The works of a devil.

Happy Birthday Jelyn

yah.. its Jelyn's bertday. Happy 15th. Man.. we're growing up.

Hmm... *thinking*

Im thinking of changing my blogskin. This one is so,um, dramatic. Like I had enough of the drama. I found the perfect skin at www.blogskins.com when I browsed last night. Its green and has an attitude. Should I??

We live in a city of Devils

I am currently listening Yellowcard's City of Devils and I dont know, just felt like using it as my title. Yeah.. in a city of devils we live..

I feel emotional a while ago... hmm... tantrums.. just lay their on my bed. Staring blankly at the ceiling. Lost in my thoughts.

Haha. With the things Im mentioning here, you're probably thinking I had a bad day. Well if you look at it, today was a good day. Although my white school socks were like hell with mud from our football field in PE class, its still a good day. I didnt flunk our Geometry seatwork and delivered a good speech in Tech. English.. Btw, my speech was the Gettysburg Address by Abraham Lincoln. Love that speech.

I am posting something here because it has been a million years since i lasted posted. What can i do? There's not much to blog about. My days are same same.

Anyway, I am really loving this school year. Im bonding with my classmates I did not have the chance to bond with in my second year. After class, some of us stay behind and someone would start a conversation about a juicy topic and so we talk and have a lots of laughs. Really. There are alot of people inside our four-sided classroom I want to get to know more. There is something more behind every person, right?

Haay.... to sum it all up.. I am happy :D . With the way this school year is turning out, who isnt?
Well I may encounter problems like rushing deadlines and flunked quizzes and i would feel suicidal but at the end of the day, I am happy.

I hope this new found happiness will last.


Ps..
Its raining day and night.
Sunshine, where are you?

Hello

im really busy

busy as a bee

no... busy as an ant

whatever

i will now go and hybernate

zzzzzzzzz