self-control

Im bloated. Damn, overate again! Its hard to believe that a thin girl like me would eat so much food. But believe me, it is true. My stomach will burst anytime. Haaay…

Quick recap: I got fed up from my diet and quit a week ago. After all my hardwork, I didnt even lose one single pound. My spirit was crushed. And as expected, I found comfort in food. So now, here I am feeling guilty and disappointed. I was doing so fine and was actually progressing. Today, I have made up my mind. I am starting again tomorrow since its Ash Wednesday. A day of fasting. A while ago was my turning point. We ate out and I realized that I have to break this habit. Its a matter of self-control. You see, I always eat in-between meals. I spend most of my money on them. So, when the proper mealtime comes, I loose my appetite, eat less good food and later on, munch on some unhealthy ones. I am a very bad girl.

I feel sad because people keep on criticizing me about the way I eat. (I know you are too.) Please dont. If you just know both sides of the story, youll take back your words. I am a big girl. I know what Im doing. I absolutely don’t want to end up like Nicole Richie and Hilary Duff. Anorexia is a no-no. I have my limitations. Maybe I’m just having “issues” like every other young souls out there. So, dont judge me. Hater.