All my bags are packed.Im ready to go...

Im moving!!

www.mypersonal-legend.blogspot.com

click the link...

goodbye The MakeBelieve!!

It is official. I am on a blog leave.

Since its sembreak, im spending my spare time hogging the computer, absorbing Photoshop and drooling over these very complicated codes-- all of these for the sake of my new blog.

May gulay, who knew this could be so hard?

Well, im expecting my super powers to come out anytime and help me get over this layout fiasco, but somehow, my super powers are disappointing me.

Powers? Where art thou?

Anyhoo... I have so much to tell you. But i am sadly holding my tongue and saving the details for my new blog.

Basta, so much happened yesterday.

Yesterday was one of my best days this year.

Also, i am going through a transformation. I am slow by slow wlaking toward Jesus.

I will just talk about everything when i get back.


ps.
i have a contest tomorrow. Pray for moi. Ü

I cant post today or tomorrow or the next day after tomorrow
or the next day after that. I am currently building my new blog.
And I think im going to barf with all these HTML shizz.
But im not in a blog leave.
Or maybe i am?

Those feelings sparking again [Im listening to The Scientist by Coldplay..haay..im teary-eyed.i feel that way when i listen to their songs.]


I have a lot of things to tell you.


First of all, I am really happy of what Nadine said on her message on my cbox. I have read it just now and I am smiling, feeling happy of myself. According to her, I am growing up and my entries are more sensible. Wow. The greatest message left on my cbox yet.

Yes, I agree with her. I have [heeeheee] blossomed. This year is what I call my golden year. The rosebud has turned into a full-grown fragrant rose. Well in my case, not that full-grown but i am in the process. Day by day, i discover something new in myself.

I had a talk with a guy friend this afternoon. He has been my classmate since first year. It happened that we talked about myself then and now. He said that i used to be unexplainably complicated and immature. [Okay, not those exact words but close to them] What he said brought back memories of who i used to be.

When i was in first year, i was like a barbaric nomad. I have just graduated from grade school [which my life there was hell] and i had no real friends at that time. I had no personality and my eyebrows were really bushy [im so happy i considered plucking!]. I was a confused fish out of water. Then i met these group of girls whom i thought were my friends. Yes, they were my friends but they turned me into a barbarian. Why? I became a foul-mouthed insecure wannabe when i was tailing them around.

Okay, i feel guilty. They were good friends but i guess, they are not that modest.
What a shame. I was once one of them. I was influenced by there unlikely culture and lifestyle. Shame..shame..shame

Then my second year in high school came. My barbaric friends and i were separated because we were in different sections. I thought that it was the end of the world at that time. Why? Because there is a myth that when your friends are in different sections, your friendship will sort of loose track of the right direction and eventually sink. [I know, really immature and innocent]

But I figured out that i was not happy in their company. So i decided to make friends whom will influence me for the good. Fate favored me and i met my current friends because of a class grouping. These people are familiar to me since we were schoolmates since grade school. But as i have said, my life in grade school was hell so i didnt have the chance to socialize [as if i knew how to socialize when i was in grade school. I was a people-pleaser.].

Okay, so you know what happened next. I met friends who are really friends. We were similar and different but in good ways. For the first time in my melancholic life, i felt secure and happy with my friends.

They changed me. Okay okay..some things did too but they made a great impact.

And i am so happy that i have met them.

Well, it seems an entry supposed to be all about my transistion from past to present became a friendship post. Heehee..

I guess something or someone prompted me to contemplate on my social life now.

Haay..buhaayy.

Now that i am in my third year in high school, i am better..and will be doing better..than ever.

Gees.. i am so cheesy!

[im watching The Devil wears Prada right now. Lets see if its a little better than the book.]

I always get away with things. [currently drinking Welch's grape juice]

Yes.. I do, i do. I woke up at 7.35 this morning and classes start at 7:15. I was really panicking. I thought of missing school but we have this very important event so i made up my mind to go to school and kept my fingers crossed that i can make my way through my magic. [bwahahaha]

Well, i got to school at 8!! I came almost one hour late. But, as i have said, my magic always works. I dont know, maybe i turn invisible or something.They did not notice moi. Haaay... tantananan-tanan
SUPER CHARING!!

Anyway, that important event was our annual SCORES or Students Congress of Recollects School. It is an inter-school [or in our case, inter-recollect-school] literary musical competition. Our school is the host for this year. Some of the students will also be hosts to the delegates from other recollect schools. They will provide house and lodging to them. I know, it sounds really exciting.

But i did not host. Its tiring and i have to socialize. I had enough of that. [ :D]

I was their tour guide though. The main reason why i wanted to tour them around campus is because i want to [ahhemm] see some cuties. But i realized that it was not right. I am not a flirt or anything so i just felt really stupid doing that. Stupid things stupid people do.

Haay..

And btw, i was really looking forward for this SCORES. I thought that something enchanting and magical will happen to me just like what happened to me when Bacolod City hosted the football category of SEAGAMES. [its a looong story]

But i guess those magical events in our life happen only once in a while.

About the SEAGAMES, its a loong story. But to summarize it, I [together with my few other crazy friends] went to Robinsons in a bus full of Thai football players. All guys. There were only 3 girls including me. How nice.. and dangerous.

This SCORES thing will last for a week. I will just wait for that magical moment. [heeheee]

ps.
thanks for the pipz who dropped by.

Defining cheapness

I forgot to tell you this little something that happened to me yesterday. Its not really that interesting. I just thought of making a post out of it because i cant think of anything right now.

So i was at National Bookstore yesterday. I was drooling over their very very tempting books. I was eyeing a novel about an abused little boy whose mother considers him a slave so he was sent for adoption but things are still pretty messed up. [I forgot the title..hehe]

I saw my cousin outside the bookstore. I said hi and he said hello. Then he introduced me to his so-called manager. My cousin has a twin and they model for...i dont know. Basta they have modeling stints here in Bacolod City.

I smiled at his manager which happen to be a [ehem] bakla.

Then he [or she?] told me

"oh hija, why dont you join Miss Teen Calendar?"

And i was like wtf?? Miss Teen Calendar? Uh..knock knock? Cheapness!

Of course i refused and i made lame excuses like I am so busy or i have something else to do [im so disappointed because normally, i make really believable excuses].

He thought for a while and suspiciously said that our exams are over so why am i still busy. Well, excuse me mister, I have alot of things to pay attention to than just walking stupidly on stage wearing a cheap pageant dress and faking a smile!!!

But i didnt tell him that. He continued saying that "I will join you in December, o diba?"

Now i was forced to fake a smile. I kept my manners and politeness and just said i will think about it [but of course i wont.Why waste brain cells?]

Then i walked away. People like them are... never mind. [i promised not put profanity here on my blog]

Gosh, beauty pageants like those are so chipipay [omg! Im using gay lingo]. I dont want to join not because i cant do it, but because i dont want to look cheap...and stupid.

My common perception for people joining those kind of beauty contests are deperate. Desperate for attention.

If i were to choose whether to join a local beauty pageant, or a scary Math Olympiad, i will definitely go for the Math thing, even though im bad in Math.

SO you see, becasue of this post, I am making a statement.

I prefer brains, than beauty.[But its always good to have both..bwahaha]

Change for the better

I am currently changing my friendster profile . My sister Abby sent me a message that I should better change my profile, which will reflect who I really am and not who I want people to think of me. She noted that I am Gods princess. I guess she told me that because I used to think that I am a true American in a Filipino body.

I know, it does sound bad and discriminating but I don’t mean it that way. I am proud to be Pinay but I just strangely love things that are of American like movies, music and books. I am not saying that things of Filipino are bad or whatever that comes into your mind. We are talented and world-class. But some people just have different tastes and happen to be opinionated.

And that include me. I am just making it all crystal clear. Alright?

So now, I have learned a lesson. Be contented and happy of who you are and what you are. I am a Filipino with a fetish for international chuvaness. [heeshees]

Now I am going to tell you what happened today.

The public and private schools in Bacolod City are annually having an inter-school competition. Our school hosted the Dancefest for this year. Dance groups from different schools compete for the pop dance category and there is also a dancesport.

So there, we watched with the entrance fee of 30 pesos. I was at first reluctant to watch because I am so kuripot and 30 pesos sounds like 300 pesos for me. But I ended up watching the thing because my sister, Andrea , will dance. So you know, sisterhood support.

It was okay. Some schools just didnt get what pop dance should really mean. There was a group that was just confused. While they were performing, I thought I was in a strip club [!!!]. Their costume was... Haay... basta, the their costume is every mans dream [bwahahaha].

I have a theory: If you are number 1 in a competition where there are more than 5 participants, chances are [so sorry] you will end up losing.

So there was 11 participants and my sisters group [which was our schools group] was number 1. So, my theory was right. They didnt bring home the bacon.

Honestly, they were all saying that the judging was unfair and blah blah blah.. Sore looser?

I dont know. No comment. Maybe one of them will read my blog. I f that happens, ill be dead.

Anyway, my post is really boring. It is so self-centered. I will try to post a nice entry tomorrow.

Yees..yees..I am back!!

Forgive me for the cold,stupid,sarcastic post I have just made. I was just really tired that I felt like my brain shrunk. Bwahahaha...

But what I said were true. I am dead tired. I need to sleep.

Anyway, I am happy at this moment. My smile is as big as this. As in. I am currently loading the brushes I have just downloaded from www.pootato.org and they are WOW. Super duper ganda.. [tagalog oh..]

I am learning how to use Photoshop because I really do want to make my own blog layouts. My current layout is really simple BECAUSE I have just started decoding it. But once I master Photoshop, you guys just watch out. [Bwahahaha]

Whenever I bloghop, I feel bad because man, their blogs look fantabuloso. People who can make blog layouts like the ones at www.blogskins.com are for me [ehem] geniuses. It does not take a million years for me to learn something new. I am a fast learner [hehe] but somehow, I am like dumb and dumber when it comes to Photoshop. Ppfff..i want to work it like pro. But I cant.

Time..All I need is time.

Okay, now lets talk about the friggin exams.

Well what can I say? The word examination means torture to every student. Just hearing it already makes your heart skip a beat. * rolling eyes *

I am not an anti-exam-girl. Well.. okay.. a little. But I just dont like exams because of how it turns you into a caffeine-addict-pimple-faced-freak.I am not over-exaggerating.
I have zits on my face right now because i study and stay up as late as 1 in the morning. [Alleluia for Panoxyl, my shweetheart].

Man, i am so ranting right now. But thats the point of blogging right? So here is my list of the things i hate about exams.

1. Exams keep me away from my dearest blog.
2. I have to spend money for my photocopies.
3. I have to bring all my books home from my school locker. All 10 books. And i end up
looking like i am a refugee having books as my clothes.
4. I have to expand my memorizing powers to the highest limit.
5. After memorizing, I forget everything the next day.
6. I have to pay all my balances to get a permit. [not necessarily me..my mother actually]
7. I have to say no to the temptations of watching TV and blogging. [which i am not particularly good at]
8. I have to deal with pimples for staying up late.
9. Exams turn me into a control freak.
10. Exams make me grumpy.
11. I develop a panic disorder.
12. I have to cope up with the time limit.
13. I have to study and learn things which are not really revelant in the near future. [like drafting]
14. I have to apply time management. [im very bad at this]
15. I have to make guesses and decisions.
16. Block outs.
17. I cant take a bath. [When i am really busy, i dont take a bath.Bwahahaha]
18. Cramming. >:C
19. I cant have my siesta.
20. Exams just devour all my super powers. 8-/


I also wanted to make a list of What i like about exams but i just cant think of any. Although i have a tip for you:

Study on the floor.

I used to study on my bed but the softness of it makes want to sleep. So i decided to move to the floor. And its effective.Try it.

So now let me ask you, what do you hate and love about exams?

ps.
Thank you for all who left messages.
I heart you. :D

Murder. Our periodic exams were like murder.


With tired eyes, tired soul, i am blogging. I missed this world. I missed my life online.

I only had 4 hours of sleep in the past three days and i should be sleeping right now.Seriously.
But here i am. Absorbing the radiation of my monitor and indulging myself to the sound of the keyboard keys. And i am happy. Ecstatic. Why should i bother sleeping if i cant sleep. Im having insomnia or what you call it. I just lay there, twisting back and forth, left and right, imagining things.But i just coud not sleep. I tried counting my sheeps. It didnt work. Why? Because i am just pathetically abnormal.

I sound tired am i? Yeah..with the looks of it, this post is empty, senseless and worthless.


*2 minutes of thinking*


Thats it. Im out. Ill be back when im fully charged. ~_~

Before anything else...

Happy Birthday Sophie!!!
*finally reposted with corrections






[mouse over picture for caption..the picture is blurry..pardon me.]
Man, youre turning sixteen and I am still 14?? Isnt that weird? So now im calling you lola.. Hafi bertdey lola!! Mwahaha..Shmayl!! Thank you for being my support system and for all the cream-o's you have given to me. I wish you all the goodnees this life could offer.Labyu!! Godpseed!!


Side comment from the blogger herself:
[Tired from a hard day of studying, I came home restlessly with the plan of doing my homework and sleeping early. But, I have to say, it is indeed a wonderful life. When I went inside our house, I was greeted with * drumroll * a tupperware of lechon!!!! But not only the usual meat or whatever you call it.. There was also a smaller tupperware of crispy lechon skin..Woohoo.!! I dont know where the heck it came from.. but one thing is certain, someones turning into a pig.Bwahahaha]

Another side comment:
[Im taking a break from the bloggingworld.I wont be blogging for the next two weeks because our second grading examinations are coming up. So this post will be long.Probably the longest post I have ever made. Enjoy it. Au revoir!!]


I know I said I will post new features every month here in my blog. But due to circumstances, I wasnt able to. I said three things:

1. I will feature something or someone I love at the moment.
2. I will post the lyrics and the video of the song stuck on my head
3. I will tell something juicy or new about myself every 30th of the month.


I only managed to do the second because it didnt require me to think.Hehehe.. I was just really tired to think.But now, my brain cells are fully charged [blame it to the lechon] and I am ready to unleash my super powers... Read on.