MakeBelieve

2006-11-04T12:22:00.000+08:00

All my bags are packed.Im ready to go...

Im moving!!

www.mypersonal-legend.blogspot.com

click the link...

goodbye The MakeBelieve!!

2006-10-26T20:51:00.000+08:00

It is official. I am on a blog leave.

Since its sembreak, im spending my spare time hogging the computer, absorbing Photoshop and drooling over these very complicated codes-- all of these for the sake of my new blog.

May gulay, who knew this could be so hard?

Well, im expecting my super powers to come out anytime and help me get over this layout fiasco, but somehow, my super powers are disappointing me.

Powers? Where art thou?

Anyhoo... I have so much to tell you. But i am sadly holding my tongue and saving the details for my new blog.

Basta, so much happened yesterday.

Yesterday was one of my best days this year.

Also, i am going through a transformation. I am slow by slow wlaking toward Jesus.

I will just talk about everything when i get back.

ps.
i have a contest tomorrow. Pray for moi. Ü

2006-10-21T09:55:00.000+08:00

I cant post today or tomorrow or the next day after tomorrow
or the next day after that. I am currently building my new blog.
And I think im going to barf with all these HTML shizz.
But im not in a blog leave.
Or maybe i am?

2006-10-18T17:35:00.000+08:00

Those feelings sparking again [Im listening to The Scientist by Coldplay..haay..im teary-eyed.i feel that way when i listen to their songs.]

I have a lot of things to tell you.

First of all, I am really happy of what Nadine said on her message on my cbox. I have read it just now and I am smiling, feeling happy of myself. According to her, I am growing up and my entries are more sensible. Wow. The greatest message left on my cbox yet.

Yes, I agree with her. I have [heeeheee] blossomed. This year is what I call my golden year. The rosebud has turned into a full-grown fragrant rose. Well in my case, not that full-grown but i am in the process. Day by day, i discover something new in myself.

I had a talk with a guy friend this afternoon. He has been my classmate since first year. It happened that we talked about myself then and now. He said that i used to be unexplainably complicated and immature. [Okay, not those exact words but close to them] What he said brought back memories of who i used to be.

When i was in first year, i was like a barbaric nomad. I have just graduated from grade school [which my life there was hell] and i had no real friends at that time. I had no personality and my eyebrows were really bushy [im so happy i considered plucking!]. I was a confused fish out of water. Then i met these group of girls whom i thought were my friends. Yes, they were my friends but they turned me into a barbarian. Why? I became a foul-mouthed insecure wannabe when i was tailing them around.

Okay, i feel guilty. They were good friends but i guess, they are not that modest.
What a shame. I was once one of them. I was influenced by there unlikely culture and lifestyle. Shame..shame..shame

Then my second year in high school came. My barbaric friends and i were separated because we were in different sections. I thought that it was the end of the world at that time. Why? Because there is a myth that when your friends are in different sections, your friendship will sort of loose track of the right direction and eventually sink. [I know, really immature and innocent]

But I figured out that i was not happy in their company. So i decided to make friends whom will influence me for the good. Fate favored me and i met my current friends because of a class grouping. These people are familiar to me since we were schoolmates since grade school. But as i have said, my life in grade school was hell so i didnt have the chance to socialize [as if i knew how to socialize when i was in grade school. I was a people-pleaser.].

Okay, so you know what happened next. I met friends who are really friends. We were similar and different but in good ways. For the first time in my melancholic life, i felt secure and happy with my friends.

They changed me. Okay okay..some things did too but they made a great impact.

And i am so happy that i have met them.

Well, it seems an entry supposed to be all about my transistion from past to present became a friendship post. Heehee..

I guess something or someone prompted me to contemplate on my social life now.

Haay..buhaayy.

Now that i am in my third year in high school, i am better..and will be doing better..than ever.

Gees.. i am so cheesy!

[im watching The Devil wears Prada right now. Lets see if its a little better than the book.]

2006-10-16T18:53:00.000+08:00

I always get away with things. [currently drinking Welch's grape juice]

Yes.. I do, i do. I woke up at 7.35 this morning and classes start at 7:15. I was really panicking. I thought of missing school but we have this very important event so i made up my mind to go to school and kept my fingers crossed that i can make my way through my magic. [bwahahaha]

Well, i got to school at 8!! I came almost one hour late. But, as i have said, my magic always works. I dont know, maybe i turn invisible or something.They did not notice moi. Haaay... tantananan-tanan
SUPER CHARING!!

Anyway, that important event was our annual SCORES or Students Congress of Recollects School. It is an inter-school [or in our case, inter-recollect-school] literary musical competition. Our school is the host for this year. Some of the students will also be hosts to the delegates from other recollect schools. They will provide house and lodging to them. I know, it sounds really exciting.

But i did not host. Its tiring and i have to socialize. I had enough of that. [ :D]

I was their tour guide though. The main reason why i wanted to tour them around campus is because i want to [ahhemm] see some cuties. But i realized that it was not right. I am not a flirt or anything so i just felt really stupid doing that. Stupid things stupid people do.

Haay..

And btw, i was really looking forward for this SCORES. I thought that something enchanting and magical will happen to me just like what happened to me when Bacolod City hosted the football category of SEAGAMES. [its a looong story]

But i guess those magical events in our life happen only once in a while.

About the SEAGAMES, its a loong story. But to summarize it, I [together with my few other crazy friends] went to Robinsons in a bus full of Thai football players. All guys. There were only 3 girls including me. How nice.. and dangerous.

This SCORES thing will last for a week. I will just wait for that magical moment. [heeheee]

ps.
thanks for the pipz who dropped by.

2006-10-14T09:54:00.000+08:00

Defining cheapness

I forgot to tell you this little something that happened to me yesterday. Its not really that interesting. I just thought of making a post out of it because i cant think of anything right now.

So i was at National Bookstore yesterday. I was drooling over their very very tempting books. I was eyeing a novel about an abused little boy whose mother considers him a slave so he was sent for adoption but things are still pretty messed up. [I forgot the title..hehe]

I saw my cousin outside the bookstore. I said hi and he said hello. Then he introduced me to his so-called manager. My cousin has a twin and they model for...i dont know. Basta they have modeling stints here in Bacolod City.

I smiled at his manager which happen to be a [ehem] bakla.

Then he [or she?] told me

"oh hija, why dont you join Miss Teen Calendar?"

And i was like wtf?? Miss Teen Calendar? Uh..knock knock? Cheapness!

Of course i refused and i made lame excuses like I am so busy or i have something else to do [im so disappointed because normally, i make really believable excuses].

He thought for a while and suspiciously said that our exams are over so why am i still busy. Well, excuse me mister, I have alot of things to pay attention to than just walking stupidly on stage wearing a cheap pageant dress and faking a smile!!!

But i didnt tell him that. He continued saying that "I will join you in December, o diba?"

Now i was forced to fake a smile. I kept my manners and politeness and just said i will think about it [but of course i wont.Why waste brain cells?]

Then i walked away. People like them are... never mind. [i promised not put profanity here on my blog]

Gosh, beauty pageants like those are so chipipay [omg! Im using gay lingo]. I dont want to join not because i cant do it, but because i dont want to look cheap...and stupid.

My common perception for people joining those kind of beauty contests are deperate. Desperate for attention.

If i were to choose whether to join a local beauty pageant, or a scary Math Olympiad, i will definitely go for the Math thing, even though im bad in Math.

SO you see, becasue of this post, I am making a statement.

I prefer brains, than beauty.[But its always good to have both..bwahaha]

2006-10-13T21:10:00.000+08:00

Change for the better

I am currently changing my friendster profile . My sister Abby sent me a message that I should better change my profile, which will reflect who I really am and not who I want people to think of me. She noted that I am Gods princess. I guess she told me that because I used to think that I am a true American in a Filipino body.

I know, it does sound bad and discriminating but I don’t mean it that way. I am proud to be Pinay but I just strangely love things that are of American like movies, music and books. I am not saying that things of Filipino are bad or whatever that comes into your mind. We are talented and world-class. But some people just have different tastes and happen to be opinionated.

And that include me. I am just making it all crystal clear. Alright?

So now, I have learned a lesson. Be contented and happy of who you are and what you are. I am a Filipino with a fetish for international chuvaness. [heeshees]

Now I am going to tell you what happened today.

The public and private schools in Bacolod City are annually having an inter-school competition. Our school hosted the Dancefest for this year. Dance groups from different schools compete for the pop dance category and there is also a dancesport.

So there, we watched with the entrance fee of 30 pesos. I was at first reluctant to watch because I am so kuripot and 30 pesos sounds like 300 pesos for me. But I ended up watching the thing because my sister, Andrea , will dance. So you know, sisterhood support.

It was okay. Some schools just didnt get what pop dance should really mean. There was a group that was just confused. While they were performing, I thought I was in a strip club [!!!]. Their costume was... Haay... basta, the their costume is every mans dream [bwahahaha].

I have a theory: If you are number 1 in a competition where there are more than 5 participants, chances are [so sorry] you will end up losing.

So there was 11 participants and my sisters group [which was our schools group] was number 1. So, my theory was right. They didnt bring home the bacon.

Honestly, they were all saying that the judging was unfair and blah blah blah.. Sore looser?

I dont know. No comment. Maybe one of them will read my blog. I f that happens, ill be dead.

Anyway, my post is really boring. It is so self-centered. I will try to post a nice entry tomorrow.

2006-10-11T15:03:00.000+08:00

Yees..yees..I am back!!

Forgive me for the cold,stupid,sarcastic post I have just made. I was just really tired that I felt like my brain shrunk. Bwahahaha...

But what I said were true. I am dead tired. I need to sleep.

Anyway, I am happy at this moment. My smile is as big as this. As in. I am currently loading the brushes I have just downloaded from www.pootato.org and they are WOW. Super duper ganda.. [tagalog oh..]

I am learning how to use Photoshop because I really do want to make my own blog layouts. My current layout is really simple BECAUSE I have just started decoding it. But once I master Photoshop, you guys just watch out. [Bwahahaha]

Whenever I bloghop, I feel bad because man, their blogs look fantabuloso. People who can make blog layouts like the ones at www.blogskins.com are for me [ehem] geniuses. It does not take a million years for me to learn something new. I am a fast learner [hehe] but somehow, I am like dumb and dumber when it comes to Photoshop. Ppfff..i want to work it like pro. But I cant.

Time..All I need is time.

Okay, now lets talk about the friggin exams.

Well what can I say? The word examination means torture to every student. Just hearing it already makes your heart skip a beat. * rolling eyes *

I am not an anti-exam-girl. Well.. okay.. a little. But I just dont like exams because of how it turns you into a caffeine-addict-pimple-faced-freak.I am not over-exaggerating.
I have zits on my face right now because i study and stay up as late as 1 in the morning. [Alleluia for Panoxyl, my shweetheart].

Man, i am so ranting right now. But thats the point of blogging right? So here is my list of the things i hate about exams.

1. Exams keep me away from my dearest blog.
2. I have to spend money for my photocopies.
3. I have to bring all my books home from my school locker. All 10 books. And i end up
looking like i am a refugee having books as my clothes.
4. I have to expand my memorizing powers to the highest limit.
5. After memorizing, I forget everything the next day.
6. I have to pay all my balances to get a permit. [not necessarily me..my mother actually]
7. I have to say no to the temptations of watching TV and blogging. [which i am not particularly good at]
8. I have to deal with pimples for staying up late.
9. Exams turn me into a control freak.
10. Exams make me grumpy.
11. I develop a panic disorder.
12. I have to cope up with the time limit.
13. I have to study and learn things which are not really revelant in the near future. [like drafting]
14. I have to apply time management. [im very bad at this]
15. I have to make guesses and decisions.
16. Block outs.
17. I cant take a bath. [When i am really busy, i dont take a bath.Bwahahaha]
18. Cramming. >:C
19. I cant have my siesta.
20. Exams just devour all my super powers. 8-/

I also wanted to make a list of What i like about exams but i just cant think of any. Although i have a tip for you:

Study on the floor.

I used to study on my bed but the softness of it makes want to sleep. So i decided to move to the floor. And its effective.Try it.

So now let me ask you, what do you hate and love about exams?

ps.
Thank you for all who left messages.
I heart you. :D

2006-10-11T14:06:00.000+08:00

Murder. Our periodic exams were like murder.

With tired eyes, tired soul, i am blogging. I missed this world. I missed my life online.

I only had 4 hours of sleep in the past three days and i should be sleeping right now.Seriously.
But here i am. Absorbing the radiation of my monitor and indulging myself to the sound of the keyboard keys. And i am happy. Ecstatic. Why should i bother sleeping if i cant sleep. Im having insomnia or what you call it. I just lay there, twisting back and forth, left and right, imagining things.But i just coud not sleep. I tried counting my sheeps. It didnt work. Why? Because i am just pathetically abnormal.

I sound tired am i? Yeah..with the looks of it, this post is empty, senseless and worthless.

*2 minutes of thinking*

Thats it. Im out. Ill be back when im fully charged. ~_~

2006-10-02T19:26:00.005+08:00

Before anything else...

Happy Birthday Sophie!!!
*finally reposted with corrections

[mouse over picture for caption..the picture is blurry..pardon me.]
Man, youre turning sixteen and I am still 14?? Isnt that weird? So now im calling you lola.. Hafi bertdey lola!! Mwahaha..Shmayl!! Thank you for being my support system and for all the cream-o's you have given to me. I wish you all the goodnees this life could offer.Labyu!! Godpseed!!

Side comment from the blogger herself:
[Tired from a hard day of studying, I came home restlessly with the plan of doing my homework and sleeping early. But, I have to say, it is indeed a wonderful life. When I went inside our house, I was greeted with * drumroll * a tupperware of lechon!!!! But not only the usual meat or whatever you call it.. There was also a smaller tupperware of crispy lechon skin..Woohoo.!! I dont know where the heck it came from.. but one thing is certain, someones turning into a pig.Bwahahaha]

Another side comment:
[Im taking a break from the bloggingworld.I wont be blogging for the next two weeks because our second grading examinations are coming up. So this post will be long.Probably the longest post I have ever made. Enjoy it. Au revoir!!]

I know I said I will post new features every month here in my blog. But due to circumstances, I wasnt able to. I said three things:

1. I will feature something or someone I love at the moment.
2. I will post the lyrics and the video of the song stuck on my head
3. I will tell something juicy or new about myself every 30th of the month.

I only managed to do the second because it didnt require me to think.Hehehe.. I was just really tired to think.But now, my brain cells are fully charged [blame it to the lechon] and I am ready to unleash my super powers... Read on.

2006-10-02T18:14:00.000+08:00

* FEATURE OF THE MONTH *
reposted with corrections

COLDPLAY-ing

If you happen to tune in to MTV, you cant help but notice the new videos from new artists they play. Well some you cant notice because they are not that great to be noticed but you know...you get the picture right?

And for a fact,with the advent of so many bands these days, its really hard to decide which song to listen or which group to idolize. Lets see, just to name new bands both foreign and local, there is the ClickFive,Spongecola, Callalily, Pupil,Itchyworms and the oh-so-not-interesting Cueshe [Bwahahaha..read:its just my opinion]

Oohh...but not only bands, solo artists too. On the list are Rihanna, Cassie, whats-her-name and the list goes on and on..

But despite these new bands and artists, no one [and i mean NO ONE] could ever replace that extraordinary, exceptional Bristish band permanently marked on my heart. Do i need to say it?

Duh..Coldplay!!

I know it will spark some arguments and violent reactions if i say that they are the best band, so let me rephrase it and say they are ONE of the best bands in the world. I could listen to their songs all day and i wouldnt even get tired.

Let me give you a quick history of how i first met Coldplay and how i fell inlove to the beauty of their music.[So cheesy]

I first heard them when i was watching The OC.[yes..this teeny bopper thing was my favorite before] It was their season finale and people were punching each other,dying..the drama was very heavy. I was very absorbed in the episode. When one of the characters drowned in the pool, this very melancholic song played as their BG music. It was very solemn yet the song was kind of a rock/pop song.

The song was suck on my head.Yet i didnt know wat song was that or who sang it. At that time, i was very ignorant with the music industry. At that time, coldplay was just a word to me.

But as destiny would find its way to let a fat kid find that jar of cookie, destiny made Coldplay and i meet once again.

I have just downloaded BearShare and i was searching for songs to download. [Everyone knows what it is right? But to the clueless, it is a program that allows you to download MP3's from the web.] I typed in: Songs from The OC. After a few seconds, it displayed hundreds of songs which the TV show used as their BG music. There were hundreds. I randomly clicked the song i thought was nice.. and guess what? I magically clicked that Coldplay song. It was entitled Fix you and i just thought what a nice title so i clicked it.

After downloading them, i burned the songs to my cd and listened to them that night. I listened to that Coldplay song..I listened hard to the lyrics. And it was love at first sight.. or in my case love at first hearing [is the grammar right? i cant find the right word] .

Its really weird but starting from that day, i could constantly hear the band Coldplay being mentioned on TV or get to watch their videos. Its like after discovering them, MYX suddenly played their videos more often.Weird.

I sound really cheesy throughout this whole post, and to sound even cheesier, i cried when i heard that Coldplay song. Man, just listen to the song Fix you. It is really nice. And i was feeling really emotional that time because it was the first time that i got a line of 7 grade.. so i guess that added to the factors that made me cry.. Haay buhaaay..

Anyway, there are so many reasons why i love Coldplay but i believe the most important thing is because of that special ingredient they add to their songs that just make my heart skip a beat and makes my mind just take a break from everything whenever i hear their songs.

OOhhh..i just love them.. Here are some websites dedicated to them.

www.coldplay.com
www.coldplaying.com

2006-10-01T18:32:00.000+08:00

Happy 1st of October

For some reason, i celebrate whenever the first day of every month comes. It is like a new beginning to a 30 or so days of journey.Bwahahaha... Im so corny.

Anyway, it is the month of the Holy Rosary. Our school will be praying the rosary every single day. Im excited. Its nice to think that youll be praying everyday for a whole month. Its the least thing you could do...

I am so speechless right now.. So i decided to just post here a survey from www.bzoink.com
I love taking surveys because i dont take them seriously.Hehehe

But seriously, it is like a moment to take a break and reexamine yourself. It makes you wanna say
"oh yeahh.. right."

Anyway enjoy it. :D

*All about u = )*
BASICS
Name?:	Charisse Bayona
Age?:	14
Job?:	teenager..uh..is that a job?
Best friend?:	Luigi and Nadine
Bf/Gf?:	nope..dont have one.
THIS OR THAT
Nice or Naughty?:	Naughty :D
Clean or messy?:	Clean!!Definitely!
Heat or cold?:	Heat
Love or money?:	Love <3>
Punk or Preppy?:	preppy
Abercrombie or Hollister?:	neither... i prefer Chanel or Versace..bwahahaha
WHAT U LIKE IN OPPOSITE SEX?
Hair color?:	Black
Height?:	hmmm.. maybe around 5'8
Tan/pale?:	Tan
Looks/personality?:	witty,funny and into music.
Older/younger?:	same age as mine.
Have you ever?
Gotten drunk?:	yeah..with coke.
Smoked?:	euw.i hate even just the smell of cigarette.
Lied to a friend?:	yes..guilty look
Been dumped?:	NO..how could i be dumped.never had a boyfriend.
Dumped someone?:	yes.
Been in love?:	no...crush crush lang.
Drunk phone called someone?:	nope..
Kissed just a friend?:	yeah..on the cheeks.
Had someone creepily into you?:	Uhh..many times..bwahahaha
Lived just for that moment?:	what do you mean??
Considered a future with someone?:	yes..with Harry Potter.
Thought you were better then someone?:	yup yup yup.
Made someone cry?:	i guess so.made someone cry because of laughing too hard.
Been at a party where the cops were came?:	im not into parties.
Kissed in the rain?:	in my dreams.
IN THE PAST MONTH
The nicest thing you've done for someone?:	allowed Luigi to copy my homework..hehehehe..joke..i cant remember.
The meanest thing you've done to someone?:	backstabbed.
The dumbest thing you've done?:	joined this contest.
The craziest thing you've done?:	i always do crazy things.
WOULD YOU EVER
Give 100% of yourself to someone?:	maybe?
Shave your head?:	yes..that would be fun..then i'll buy a fancy wig of blonde hair with purples streaks.
Have a threesome?:	thats disgusting.
Be a hooker?:	i think im going to puke.
Kiss a member of the same sex?:	double euw.
Forgive an enemy?:	Yes..always.
END ?
Words u live by?:	I am the master of my fate.I am the captain of my soul.
Take this survey Find more surveys Bzoink - The Original Survey Site

2006-09-29T20:17:00.000+08:00

OMG..like OMG

[Oh may gulay.. Grabe.. I almost had a nervous break down before posting this post. I signed in to blogger and when the page loaded to my dashboard, the blog displayed was different. It was an empty blog with no posts. My eyes grew wide. Questions rushed into my mind. Did someone hack my blog and deleted all my posts? I looked at the username area and it showed the username I typed while I signed in. It turned out, the username I typed in was different. I typed in my username in friendster. The blog displayed was actually the one I experimented.. Hahahahaha... What a fiasco.]

Wish Granted

My friends keep on bugging me that they dont have a single exposure here on my blog. So ladies and gents, I am granting your wish.

Below is probably our best group picture[well duh.I directed it.Bwahahaha] We were having our PE class at our football field. It was March of this year and the end of the school year was nearing.When it is almost end of the school year, we hardly have serious classes. Oftentimes, we just talk and bum around. So that was the situation that day. Our PE teacher was making chikka with our other classmates and my friends and I had nothing to do. But as we all know, if there is a camera phone lying around, there is always something to do. So I grabbed the phone of Sophie [the one with the pussycat] and told them to look up to the sky as if Prince William was there or whatever. But somehow, things messed up [some apparently did not follow my directions. Ahemm...] But im glad that this picture messed up because we all look happy and the picture does not look scripted..Haay.. just missing the good old days..

BTW,

Woohooo!!!
I have finally replaced those boring smilies in my funky cbox. Those smilies were just lousy. Im sorry cbox.ws , but you have to know the truth. I suggest you make cuter and more lively smilies for your cboxes. I got my new smilies from http://www.bouncy-bubbles.net/ . [I love that website] Go ahead…post something on my cbox and use my smilies.

2006-09-27T18:08:00.000+08:00

*Tantananan-tanan*
Featuring City of Devils by Yellowcard -->link

The song currently stuck on my head. [or shall i say LSS] I have placed the video too so you can sing along. :D

City Of Devils
Yellowcard

Man once sang to me, look at you saving the world on your own
And I wonder how things are gonna be
cause the time here it passes so slow
In the city of devils we live
A city of devils we live

Find somebody to learn
Boy you gotta love someone more than yourself
I can feel the fire of the city lights burn
And its hard to find angels in hell

Flying along
And I feel like I dont belong
And I cant tell right from the wrong
Why have I been here so long
In a city of devils we live
A city of devils we live

Questions I cant seem to find
To the answers I already have
And you cant see the sky here at night
So I guess I cant make my way back

Flying along
And I feel like I don't belong
And I cant tell right from the wrong
Why have I been here so long

What if I wanted you here right now
Would you fall in the fire
Burn me down
If I wanted you here right now
Would you fall in the fire
Burn me down
If I wanted you here right now

In a city of devils we live
In a city of devils we live
A city of devils we live
In a city of

Flying along
And I feel like I don't belong
And I cant tell right from the wrong
Why have I been here so long
I dont belong
Dont belong
I've been here too long
too long

2006-09-26T18:16:00.000+08:00

Why do I blog in English?

There are two reasons behind it.

1. I am more comfortable [and happier] in blogging in English than in Filipino. Actually, not just in blogging. I prefer English in writing, speaking and reading. The Filipino language is great and all but I cant fully express myself in Filipino. I could not always find the right word since I feel like there is a limitation in its vocabulary. In English, the possibilities are endless. Besides, I am more into American thingies than in Filipino. I prefer American TV, American movies, American fashion, and [some] American music. [Oh no!! Does this mean I betray the Philippines or what?] But of course, when it comes to values, I am a Filipina. :D

2.I am from Bacolod City. So blogging in my local language [which is what most bloggers do] would be worthless because not all people could understand Hiligaynon.

So that is why, ladies and gentlemen, I blog in English. I wanted to stress out the statement in color blue but i guess i will just save it for another day.Anyway, remember what I said about posting new stuff and features here every month? Well ill try to post one today. Im keeping my fingers crossed.

2006-09-24T13:57:00.000+08:00

My favorite Picture

This picture of myself was taken when it was summer of this year. I just sat there in the seaside and my sister clicked the camera and voila... a very very dramatic picture. I dont know what was i thinking when i posed but i really look melancholic. As if i lost someone or i am heartbroken or something.So nice. [Mouse over the picture for caption.]

Im planning to write a story out of this picture.Hmm.. Ill post it here when its done.

Tootles.

2006-09-23T19:27:00.000+08:00

Absorbing the details
*reposted with corrections

I carefully examined my blog. Every inch I analyzed. I came up with my conclusion: it looks very banal. Very ordinary. And I do not like it. So I made a list of what I have to do to make it better.

On the layout
I am happy with my layout. Although its really simple, I still lurve it. It is original, unique and has a personal touch since I made it. I used to depend on www.blogskins.com for layouts. But I realized that there are also hundreds of bloggers using the same layout I use. How can one make an identity with that? So I decided to buy Adobe Photoshop and make a layout myself.

I have to make a few changes though.

1. Change my main picture. Im not going to totally change it. Ill just edit it a little and replace a picture.

2.Change my profile picture. I dont really look pretty in my current profile pic.Haha.

3.Organize my links. The links area is a total mess. I have to update it.

On the entries
Since February [I started blogging on February] I have made a total of 65 posts. I have read them and im not quite happy. They are all... rants.Well I know that a blog is a place for ranting but too much ranting is redundant. Makes you look like a complainer.Once in a while, the blogger should post something pleasing to the senses. So here is what ill do.

1.Every month, ill feature something I love at the moment. It could be a book, a movie, a band or even a brand of underwear.

2.Every month, ill post the lyrics of the song currently stuck on my head.

3.On the 30th of every month, ill post something about myself. A secret perhaps. Or anything you guys still don’t know about me. [its gonna be juicy]

4.Post more pictures. I really want to post so many pictures here but the problem is my internet connection is giving me a hard time. Its very slow. And I dont like to wait. So I guess if you want pictures just visit my multiply at the links area.

These are not promises. These things are subjects to change without prior notice. I may not be able to post them if I am really busy. But ill try my best to post them.

2006-09-23T19:09:00.000+08:00

How sad, how sad

Last night, my phone was unli and it will expire also at 11 today. Im not really a text addict kind of person [it was my first time na magpaunli since summer] but I was really happy at the thought if texting all day [it is a good exercise for my fat thumb]. My battery was low but I didnt bother to charge since I had the whole day today to charge. I was also planning to websurf and be a blogfreak today. So as you can see, I carefully planned out what I will do on Saturday.

But when I woke up this morning, it was *drumroll* freakin blackout. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs [but I didnt since I will report the Gettysburg Address on Monday].

I saw my phone and decided to make the best out of this mess and just text. I was able to send a message or two but after a few minutes * drumroll * my battery was dead. I slumped myself on my bed and threw my pillows here and there [as if I was having a pillow fight with myself]. I was angry, thinking how exceptionally sad my life is.

Turns out, some electricians were fixing a busted electric wire or something and it affected our neighborhood. They said the lights will be back at 5 [!!!!] .

So the whole morning, I was alone in our house with no electricity, an unlimited cellphone with an empty battery and a fridge full of leftovers.

How lucky I am.

Okay okay. Enough of the sarcasm. Im done with that.
Ill post another entry after this one.
Peace.

2006-09-19T18:40:00.000+08:00

Worthwhile Lessons

Lesson no. 1 Always know your teachers name.

At the first day of school, our new set of teachers was introduced. We had a lot of new teachers since five veteran teachers retired the previous school year. Okay, so when our Chemistry teacher introduced herself, I wrote down her name on the first page of my Chem notebook. [I wrote down what I thought I heard]

I kept on calling her the name I wrote down on my notebook since June. I called her by that name when I ask her questions, when I meet her around school campus or whenever I talk to her.

During exams, I write that name [which I thought was her name] on the teacher’s name section on our answer book. [we call it a blue book]

But a few hours ago, I made a startling discovery. That name is not her name. I added an A. Yes. I called my Chemistry teacher the wrong name for four months. What a smart move. Im so proud of myself.

No wonder she keeps on making parinig that someone massacres her name. Whenever she does that, Id suspect other people and think how clueless they are. Haha. So funny.

Lesson no. 2 Too much of something is very bad.

I ate five packs of cream-o today. And I dont feel too good. There is a story behind every pack of cream-o I eat. Here’s one.

My classmate found a fifty peso bill lying happily on the floor. It was as if the bill was wanting to be found. She told us and asked if someone lost that amount of money. Fortunately, no one said yes. Someone hungry suggested that we would buy the money our all time favorite cream-o. Without further ado, I found myself in our canteen excitedly buying 8 packs of cream-o.

After 3 minutes, all of the cream-o were history.
And 30 mintues later, someone said she lost fifty pesos. All of us were dead silent.

End of the story.

2006-09-18T19:24:00.000+08:00

Today is a good day. [Actually, I think everyday is a good day. Its just a matter of perception.] I woke up in a positive mood. Maybe because I slept early last night.

Early in the morning, I saw that cute guy whom my friend Jelyn and I have been giggling about since Araw ng Wika. Haha. I dont know.....I havent had a crush for a looong time. Grades are on my mind 24/7. Sometimes I even think ill grow up as an old maid. Maybe its time for me to take a break and start drooling eh? [drooling? O.A]

Then I saw him again along the stairway...and again along the corridor. Haaayyy.... I think I saw him five times today. Jelyn and I were laughing our stomachs off.

The best part of this day is I acing our Math Seatwork. Okay not really acing. I got 5 mistakes. Hey! Thats a good thing because that seatwork was like murder. You know that feeling when your hands are sweaty, you heart is skipping a beat and you expect the worse? Well i felt that way. I expected I wont pass or id flunk it but tad-ah.... a miracle just happened. So cool.

Hah. I sound like a fat kid eating cake. Im just so happy. I guess im a nerd. Or a geek or whatever they call it. Grades make me happy. Grades grades. Thats just all I ask for. Good grades. Period.

But of course, I am kind of pissed off. Remember from my last post i told ya about this stupid guy sending me messages on friendster? Well he wont stop!!!
I told him to get a life but i guess he is just too stupid to do so. I forgive him for being like that. But i know he as at least a little bit of intellegence in his brain to stop pestering me right? [If he has a brain]

I also told him that one word is enough for a wise guy. Ooops, i forgot. He is the opposite of that. Man, im so mean. Im like this to stupid people who annoy me. Sorry for him.

Anyway, I am currently drinking grape juice. I am also searching for a meaningful 1-minute speech for Technical English on Wednesday. Oh, and i have a Geometry quiz and a Chemistry test tomorrow. How nice.

ps.
i thinking i'll loose my voice tomorrow.
oh no!!!

2006-09-17T12:52:00.000+08:00

Changed

Yes. Ive changed it. Im hoping that people would not get confused of my change of url. Oh well, it their life.

Anyway, there's this someone sending me messages on friendster.
I am so pissed at him. Basta. Stupid people doing stupid things.

Later.

2006-09-16T19:29:00.000+08:00

Great.

Someone is using makebelieve.blogspot.com.
I visited it and guess what, the considerate blogger made just one post dating back from 2004. What an intellgent person. Why dont she delete it?

I tried other names too. I tried the parachutes but some Spanish girl is using it.

So what i will do is to stick to makebelieve and add the.

My url will be
the-makebelieve.blogspot.com

good enough. I'll change it maybe next week.

2006-09-16T18:51:00.000+08:00

Made up my mind

~~parachute-hours~~
~~parachutes~~
~~theparachutes~~
~~toseparachutes~~
~~parachute-wedges~~

makebelieve.blogspot.com

Im not quite sure whether this url is taken. Im still going to check it. Im keeping my fingers crossed.

2006-09-15T19:33:00.000+08:00

Im thinking of change. Perhaps a change of url. Im tired of frolic-chick. Its too... shallow. It means nothing. I dont know what was i thinking when i decided to use it. Well at first my url was pinkeroo.blogspot.com. But i googled it and someone from www.xanga.com is using it. So then I changed it to my current url.

I want my url to be original and meaningful. I have thought of something already.

parachute-hours.blogspot.com

What do you think?

Parachutes are used by skydivers when they are nearing land. They are considered lifesavers. Like me, i need a parachute when i am falling from the downfalls of life. I need a parachute that shall land me to somewhere safe and peaceful, home.
Parachutes are also brought by or affected by the direction of the wind. I am a parachute. Im just flowing wherever life takes me. I am still confused and uncertain of where i want to go.

An hour is 6o minutes long. I live my life in hours. 24 hours a day.

Im going to change it. Ill just announce when.

2006-09-15T19:15:00.000+08:00

Bittersweet

Our report card were given out on Tuesday. Yes. I am quite happy with my class rank. Okaaay... I am overwhelmed.Just imagine how i worked to pull my rank from 20.5 to 4.5.

I am a living proof that if you put your heart to what you want to achieve, nothing is impossible. When i received my report card, i was at first hesitant to look at it. I was scared that maybe i would be disappointed. But i pulled myself together and looked.

I jumped for joy. Literally. Then i gave out a slight mini scream and looked at the thing again. Just to make sure that i dont make a fool out of myself.

How nice. That was a moment of superb happiness.

But now that everything has sunk in, the happiness is somewhat no longer there. Its replaced with paranoia and uncertainty.

Now i have to maintain my rank. And i have a bad history regarding this. Im not consistent. I am just not.These past few days were weird. I am acting weird. Its like i am pressuring myself to always get the perfect score. And so, i end up not getting it. Crazy me.

Last night, i made a realization. I shouldn't count how many mistakes i have but instead, count the number of correct answers God has given me.

Its also very true in life. I always think about the things i do wrong and my problems. Well yeah... I am thankful of the good things but not from the heart. And this should not go on.

I know. I take everything seriously.

Moral Lesson: Dont do what this blogger does. Carrying a heavy heart.

I really need to lighten up.!!!!

2006-09-09T19:44:00.000+08:00

What was I thinking?

I woke up with a sore throat, an unusual harsh voice and with a restless body.

Im sick. Both physically and emotionally. Oh and yeah... Im about to be sick mentally too. I dont want to publicize what i did and what happened here. Its too sad.

Basta.... I disappointed so many people.

Im tired. I just want to sleep until i recover from the humiliation. Which probably would take forever. Why? Simply because i dwell in the past. Haayy... charing

Anyway, our Student Government organized this big event yesterday. We call it the "After 7". A night of disco and dancing as different bands both from our school and from outside our school showcase their talents.. [I sound like an advertisement.]

So there... we danced all night long. Well not really all night long. I went home early. My head felt like it was spinning and i felt sick. I wasnt enjoying. [Hah. Now i sound like a total killjoy..]

The bands were…hmmm… never mind. Ill keep it to myself.

Well well well… U-week is over. It passed in a snap of a finger. Like what I have said, this u-week is not that amazing. Im not impressed.

Whatever.

Im just tired.

(-_-)

2006-09-07T19:17:00.000+08:00

Whats going on?

Funny. Our 60th University week started four days ago and tomorrow will be the last day and I have not even mentioned a single word about it here. Well there is not much to blog about u-week. Its simply a week long celebration [or almost a week] of the anniversary of our school. Classes our suspended and students our allowed to wear civilian clothes. For me, U-week is a fashion show. There are booths and kiosks.You know, street food like fishball and hotcakes.

Anyway it means UNO-R is 60 years old. Hmm... growing old eh?

This year's u-week is a total boo!!
5 letters

b.o.r.i.n.g

*yawn* I just love it because theres no class and we can just sit back and socialize.

Oooh... before i forget I am going to be a contestant of another Impromptu Speaking Contest. Yes. Youve heard it right. I am.Again.

How ironic.

Its for the Literary-Musical Contest. Its the an annual competition participated by hs students in our high school. So i am the representative of the Third year together with my dearest friend Nadine.

And now i have to win this and beat the fourth years because I won in the VOY Impromptu Speakig Contest.

stupid..isnt it?

Pressure..pressure.. Dang, i hate that word. 8-l

And another thing, someone i call "Mr. M" is pissing me off.

2006-09-06T09:07:00.000+08:00

:'C

Its sad. Really sad. I know you have probably heard the news. Well I read it at www.Yahoo.com two days ago. It may be late for me to dedicate a post for our wildlife warrior but i just have to. I grew up watching "Crocodile Hunter" in Discovery Channel. His Australian accent which i used to find funny and the way he wrestles with crocodiles like no other fascinated me as a little kid.

But now, as a teenager I appreciate him more than that. His dedication to saving and protecting the wildlife is a great influence in our society.

He is indeed a wildlife warrior.

And i will always remember his word "Crikey" not just as an expression but as a reminder that we should all get involved in wildlife conservation.

Rest in Peace.

2006-09-02T10:35:00.000+08:00

I did it.
*reposted with corrections

I came, I saw, I conquered. :D

Im really tired of typing the details here. It is a verrry long story.
Sorry.

But just to sum it all up, I had a great time.

I made friends with my fellow contestants. They are not as cooked as i thought they were. In fact, we were all half-cooked. It was our first time to compete in an inter-school competition.

The guests were really hmm... i cant find the right word. But the were like professional senior citizens wearing fancy Barongs and Americanas. Get the picture? And some were half-breeds. You know with American or Spanish or any other mixed nationality.

The place was nice. There were chairs and tables arranged in a manner like there was a press conference going on. And by the way, the place was freezing. The contestants were asked to sit beside the President [president of the Rotary Club International. They hosted the event.]
And i sat near the air condition. I was shaking. My lips were like shivering and i had to pretend i was okay, that i felt comfortable with the freaking temperature because i was sitted next to the president. My gaaash.

Anyway, our topic was all about the proposed of integration of sex educations in the high school curriculum.

I nailed it. Although i was pretty lost in my conclusion.

On the 30th of October, Im going to Ilo-Ilo for the District Level Competition.

So help me God.

2006-08-30T19:56:00.000+08:00

I can do it!!!!!

Yes. I am joining. Tomorrow is the BIG DAY.

* breathing heavily *

I know, its nervewracking. But Ill deal with it.

My superpowers will come out soon and I shall conquer. Yes I will.

By the way, we had our Araw ng Wika today. I wore a pink Filipiniana dress with matching pink heels.. I wanted to post a picture here but i just could not get a decent pic. Hees.

Boo! This day is bad. My stupid pink heels caused me a sore feet. Worse, my pink Fil. dress got a ......
you know it. [its a girl thing] C;

But i dealt with the fiasco. Thank God i made it through the day. Uh-huh.
Im currently researching for tomorrow.

Yaaay... 5 more day til the University Week. Ill tell you the details next time. Tootles.

2006-08-27T15:52:00.000+08:00

The Problem :C

I have this huge problem. (Yeah. Its funny because my last post was really happy and now im posting a problematic one. )

I am once again stuck in a stiuation where i am forced to do something i dont want to. They are joining me in this big Impromptu Speaking contest and i dont know what to do. Im scared. I cant do it. I really cant.

Well im confident that i could speak but the problem is, i dont know what to say. Im not good in forming ideas on the spot. I need time to sit down and internalize. And Impromtu Speaking Contests have stupid time limits that shall surely make me go mad. I cant. I cant.

And just think of who the other contestants will be. Theyre probably really good at this. I mean, i am still raw while theyre already cooked. Some are even over cooked.

I ask my friends. They say i should because I can. But i know myself too much. I know my weaknesses. This is my weakness. Im not good in making logical answers to tricky questions in just a jiffy. And i am about to nuts.

This thing will be on the 31st. Yes. Four more days. Whenever i remember it, i feel this weird feeling that i pretty much dont like. Its just like having a million butterflies on your stomach.
But what i feel is far worse than that. I feel like i have a billion dragonflies on my fat stomach. And i hate it.

My teacher is giving me a choice whether to join or not. But i can hardly feel i have a choice. If i dont join, its a proof that im a coward. If i do, Ill only humiliate myself.

Plus, its the same contest my sister Abegail joined in. She won a silver medal in the National Level. It makes me feel even worse. Just one word.. pressure.

My time is running out. And i cant decide. This is huge. Really huge.

A part of my brain says that i could do it.
While another part of it says to back off.
which is which?

when i opened my diary a while ago, I found this qoute written on the first page of my journal.

Have faith. Believing something is possible is to make it come true.

It hit me really hard. Its true.

*thinking*

2006-08-27T15:34:00.000+08:00

I am like this happy

Yaayy!!!! I am done. So what do you think?

Well, at first, I thought that Adobe PS was very very weird and hard but like i told you before, im not the kind of person who takes a million years to figure out something(humility aside) and yes, after 3 days, i have cracked the Adobe Code. And i am darn happy. I thought id never be able to finish my layout since the code was giving me such a hard time. But with a gift from Heaven ( yes, i prayed that my template wont be a mess.hmm.. the power of prayer) i have conquered.

Golly, i am overreacting. I know. But this is just an achievement because i used to rely on www.blogskins.com and now i am independent.

The concept of this skin is all about the different perceptions of people on me. The multicolored pictures signify their different impressions. Pink, black blue.. whatever.

Just try to read between the lines and youll get it. ;D
Please post in my cbox if youve got something to say. You will really make me happy.
Violent reactions are accepted.

Ps.
I have a big problem.

2006-08-24T16:23:00.000+08:00

I NEED TO SLEEP!
*reposted with corrections

I feel restless, exhausted, tired as a farmer in a rice field. I should be in bed, drooling. But here I am stressing my eyes in front the computer. I have been breaking my rule of not sleeping past 12 midnight for almost a week now. What do I do? * ehem * Study. Examination week has just ended. And it drained all my super powers.

I dont really get myself. I start studying around 8 in the morning but how come I always end up still cramming in the wee hours.
Its so unfair.
I sacrifice my time and build up eyebags for decent grades while people take it for granted and still get good marks. How crazy is that?
Like when I tell people …

Pulaw ko gab-i.[I slept late last night]
Ngaa haw? [why?]
Tuon e.[studying, of course.]
Ay teh. Wala ko gani tuon pero taas man score ko.[Ha! I didn’t study but I got a high score]

What an irony.
But its reality.
Now I know, truth hurts.
Biatchiness.

I dont feel any good vibes regarding the exams. I didnt follow instructions in Chemistry, was clueless in English and much much more clueless in History.

My gaawwwd, [just trying to sound stupid] teachers can be like so cruel. Like hello? I studied ka-yaaa tapos like ganun pala yung like exams. They give me like euwy wrinkles.

That is sooo not haawwtt.

Conclusion—don’t try being a nerd when you can’t live up the name.
I guess I was not born a nerd. Like whatever.

Anyways, blogger is giving me such a hard time. Screw you blogger!!! They page would download but the portion where you input your username and password could not. Like hello?? Stupidity.

Another thing, I just find Photoshop really complicated. I am not the type of person taking a million years to figure out something but I could not figure out Photoshop. Like hello?? Ignorance.

And one more thing, I am trying to make my own layout because I want to be unique. So what Im doing is ripping out blogskins from http://www.blogskins.com/. Like hello?? Cruelty.

Alright. Enough of likes and hellos. Like hello?? Immaout.

Ps.
Please include in your
prayers Guimaras for it
is greatly affected by the Oil spill.
Coral reefs and sea animals are killed.
Like hello?? The works of a devil.

2006-08-12T17:55:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Jelyn

yah.. its Jelyn's bertday. Happy 15th. Man.. we're growing up.

Hmm... *thinking*

Im thinking of changing my blogskin. This one is so,um, dramatic. Like I had enough of the drama. I found the perfect skin at www.blogskins.com when I browsed last night. Its green and has an attitude. Should I??

2006-08-12T10:56:00.000+08:00

We live in a city of Devils

I am currently listening Yellowcard's City of Devils and I dont know, just felt like using it as my title. Yeah.. in a city of devils we live..

I feel emotional a while ago... hmm... tantrums.. just lay their on my bed. Staring blankly at the ceiling. Lost in my thoughts.

Haha. With the things Im mentioning here, you're probably thinking I had a bad day. Well if you look at it, today was a good day. Although my white school socks were like hell with mud from our football field in PE class, its still a good day. I didnt flunk our Geometry seatwork and delivered a good speech in Tech. English.. Btw, my speech was the Gettysburg Address by Abraham Lincoln. Love that speech.

I am posting something here because it has been a million years since i lasted posted. What can i do? There's not much to blog about. My days are same same.

Anyway, I am really loving this school year. Im bonding with my classmates I did not have the chance to bond with in my second year. After class, some of us stay behind and someone would start a conversation about a juicy topic and so we talk and have a lots of laughs. Really. There are alot of people inside our four-sided classroom I want to get to know more. There is something more behind every person, right?

Haay.... to sum it all up.. I am happy :D . With the way this school year is turning out, who isnt?
Well I may encounter problems like rushing deadlines and flunked quizzes and i would feel suicidal but at the end of the day, I am happy.

I hope this new found happiness will last.

Ps..
Its raining day and night.
Sunshine, where are you?

2006-08-02T10:00:00.000+08:00

Hello

im really busy

busy as a bee

no... busy as an ant

whatever

i will now go and hybernate

zzzzzzzzz

2006-07-30T09:53:00.000+08:00

Winn-uh!!

Yahoo!! I won.. Officially the High School Student’s Affairs Organization SECRETARY. We had our induction yesterday..

It has been a week since I became the secretary and I feel very stressed out already. Lots of writing to do. . and typing too.. I have to admit, I kind of regret that I run.. Its just that I am very busy with schoolwork and now I am going to die with all these extra curricular activities. But I know that its my friggin responsibility because I was the one who got myself into this in the first place.

Anyway, I had a really good confession last Wednesday. Probably my best confession ever. I just poured everything out . I felt comfortable talking to the priest. He was a great one. Hmm… maybe I can have him as a spiritual adviser. He gave me meaningful life lessons… Unlike other priests, he had the time to tackle serious issues with you. We talked about what I feel towards others and other things I cant mention here. * wink *

I was definitely spiritually cleansed. I feel very happy because I was completely honest with my sins (okay..i kept some). One should really confess everything during confessions.

2006-07-23T07:00:00.000+08:00

These past 9 days or so were really physically and mentally demanding. . a very unbearable long week for me. Indeed I can say that Im living a fast paced life. Okay… lets start from Thursday last week..

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Nadine informed me that we’re having our campaign rally the next day. I was of course worried since we haven’t practiced our production number yet. We didn’t even know what to do. So later that afternoon, all the parties rehearsed and bla bla bla and we all looked stupid.

Friday, July 14, 2006

We were excused from class the whole day for our practice and final rehearsals. The program was in the afternoon. Our party was a wreck. Well… at first. I was panicking to the highest level since I felt like our party was the least one… not only in number but also in creativity. Everyone were doing their own things and planning their cheers and were like “ Hah??!”… But of course… our super powers were released and we were able to come up with something and the rest of the ideas just sprung up. Wow. I’m really impressed because we practiced our production in just 2 hours and the outcome was good. Perhaps, the best from the others. During the rally, my heart skipped a beat. The whole high school students were there and it was just so scary. Well I have a lot of experiences regarding doing something in front of hundreds but it felt like it was the first time. I swallowed everything… shyness, pride… and just did what I had to do. That day started out really really bad but ended quite good. Yaay…

Weekend, July 15 to 16 2006

I felt like blogging over the weekend but I’m too tired to do so.

Monday, July 17, 2006

This day was a moment of truth. Our grades from our examinations were given. But it was a good day. I got good grades…grades that I deserved. * big grin * It feels good to see the fruits of your labor.

Tuesday to Wednesday, July 18 to 19, 2006

Very frustrating days. I flunked two (not just one.. but TWO) Chemistry quizzes. Imagine that? Just as when I started to think I love Chemistry….

Thursday, July 20, 2006

We had our room-to-room campaign. Yep.. We went to all the classrooms of all year levels and did what we had to do. I was specifically very nervous in campaigning in the higher year since my opponents were from the fourth year class. But courage and guts are all you need. I didn’t even think I’d make it through the day. But I did. Thank God..

Friday, July 21, 2006

YES!!! The big day. The election day. Our classes were shortened for 20 minutes to give time for the elections. Its just nerve racking to think that all the high school students will decide if I deserve to win. I didn’t really felt like knowing how many votes I got. I am afraid of the truth. I guess I’ll just wait for the results on Monday. But really.. I don’t win people would ask “okay ka lang?”. What a stupid question. Try asking that to yourself when you lose. Of course I will feel bad but hey, win or lose.. I gained a lot of fun moments from this experience. So even if I lose, I’ll still feel like a winner because of the memories I shared with my friends. But still… I WANT TO WIN!

Who doesn’t?

* im really thinking of deleting this blog

2006-07-13T06:45:00.000+08:00

Secret. . .ary

Heeeaay. . . Im running for Secretary in our Student Assembly Oraginzation... I know... It’s such a high position. It makes me think that Im out of my league. But everyone can aim for something higher and better right?

Anyway.. to all my schoolmates out there.. Exercise your rights to vote.
VOTE BAYONA! :-* <3

2006-07-13T06:36:00.000+08:00

I am resting in Peace

Haay finally I am blogging again. I wasnt able to for almost 2 weeks because of our First Examinations. But I have to admit, I did not really miss blogging. Sorry.(Im thinking of quitting. No one appreciates what I write here. Well the hype of blogging hasn’t reached Bacolod City yet. Screw Bacolod!!)

First exams…. I prepared for it. But I guess no matter how you study or work hard for a grade you deserve… friggin things will always come your way and mess up with you. There will always be hindrances to your happiness. In my case they are the following:

*Stupid time limits. Hello?? 1 hour is not enough.Especially in Drafting. You have to draw and at the same time answer some crap. Gash.. like what happened a while ago in our Filipino exams. The bell rang and I haven’t even started in the last test and I skipped another previous test. My hands were trembling and to make it worst. the proctor was having a final countdown or something. Pff. . time constraints. . . they make our lives miserable.

*Mental Block and a sudden amnesia. I am always a victim of these. But fortunately, I didnt experience them during exams (Halleluiah! ! God is indeed merciful). . Then why put them here? I don’t know. . I just felt like typing them.

*Questions that from no one knows where. Teachers tend to include things that you didn’t take up. So you end up putting the wrong answers and a minus to your score. . Wtf ? ? How unfair is this ? Some teachers have evil bloods. (I know someone)

Anyway, there isnt really a use of discussing them because they’re just parts of history now. What I have to do is to pray that I get grades that I deserve. AND. . . if I dont… pray that I wont give up. I mean its just the start of the school year right? Okay. .okay. .my mind is having a shut down. Im talking nonsense now. Please forgive me.

2006-07-01T10:06:00.000+08:00

CAT woman

Currently eating: My new addiction—Quaker oatmeal (makes me poop everyday :D)

I just came home from friggin school. Phew! What a week this was (is the grammar right?). I am glad that June is ending. This month was full of frustrations. But not necessarily failures. I mean, I am kind of successful in some of my plans for the new school year (i.e. sleeping not past 12 mn). I just feel frustrated because this minth was a time for adjustment. Plus this month, I suffered the consequences of the stupidity I did in the previous school year. I do belive in the Filipino saying "Nasa huli ang pagsisisi".

One proof is today. Our school held it's annual Award's Day for the intellegent ones. I was very reluctant to go to school since all I'll feel is jealousy. And I was indeed right. All of my friends received medals and were grinning on stage while I was there with the crowd wishing I was in thier shoes. It's pure crap. The honor students were separated from the rest. I kept on thinking that I do belong with them. But of course, that is life. As I have said another post, my time will come. I am just going to pray that "my time" will come soon... Because feeling jealous of other's success is not the favorite feeling I want to feel.

But seriously.. I felt like crying.Hmm... maybe later.. in the bathroom. I'll sit down on the toilet.. either I'll poop (the effect of oatmeal.yaay) or pour out everything in a piece of tissue paper. Ironic.

Anyway, my title is Cat woman right? But why?

Well, sweety, it is because I am now an offical Charlie aspirant or whatever they call it. You know... CAT.. Citizenship Advancement Training. Its a requirement to pass high school. Usually its taken by fourth year studs but I'll take it up in my junior year (More benefits).

I may sound ditzy but its hard. You have to straighten your posture and I end up with a back ache. It also takes up time. We have a meeting or what we call as a form (shortcut for formation..obviously) every Wednesday and Thursday at 12:15 nn. How freaky is that?? Our dismissal is at 11:45 and we only have thirty minutes to eat,toothbrush and beautify ourselves. Time management is very essential.

The worst part is.. we have to call our "superiors" sir or ma'am. It's not easy. Especially if your superior is not worth respecting and calling sir.. or ma'am (this is where pride comes in).
But I will do it. And next year.. sophies.. you watch out.

Biatches!!

PS.. Next next week is our first Grading examinations.. so goodbye Blogger.. for a while.
HAPPY JULY 1 Ya'll..
:-* xoxo <3>

2006-06-27T09:48:00.000+08:00

Club-bing

First things first.. BELATED HAFI BIRTHDAY MOTHAH... I am wishing that you minimize your screaming sessions because ya'll know it's not nice.. Hehehe :D Have a longer life.. <3

Today was a open house thingy for the different clubs in our school. The clubs will be more active this year because we are applying for PAASCU. Okay.. enough with the school lingo. So I joined as much clubs as possible. Well.. of course.. to have more points and extra-curricular activities :p I joined four clubs.

*The Lector's Guild - Lectors during mass.. obviously
*Speech and Dramatics - Since I wasn't qualified for our school paper, I am convinced that I am a better speaker than a writer.
*Designer's Club - Im not quite sure why I joined. Im not even good at drawing. But.. I love Art and I sort of have a creative mind so I guess those are the reasons why I applied.
*Student's Assembly Organization - I decided to run as the secretary of the third year class organization. I was having second thoughts of joining since I lost in the previous year.. but heck, I will give it a try.. again.

I hope I will be able to manage my time wisely. I just hope so. Anyway, my last post was so ironic. I want to delete it but it was a good post I guess. Lets just pretend nothing happened. Okay?

And btw, never mind the-judge-my-talent-through-my-posts thing. Its pure crap.

2006-06-23T10:19:00.000+08:00

The feeling of feeling like crap

As a follow-up to my ironic incident last Saturday (about my last post).. I am very happy to say that I didn't get in. Yaay. Please congratulate me. Oh..whatever.

It feels awful pitying yourself. Yes. That is how I feel right now. I feel stupid and a useless bitch. Excuse the attitude but that is the truth. Considering what happened today, I think this day will go to the records of the worst days ever. I can definitely remember every single detail. Our school paper head was announcing the fortunate people who will be the staff and editors of our effin school paper . She was down to the least positions and my f*ckin' name wasn't called yet. I was shaking and my hand were clammy. And the moment has come... she called my name and Sophie's and told us that she's sorry but blah blah blah (you know what happened next). Everyone stared at us with a look of pity. I faked a smile of course. I hid my emotions that my throat started to hurt. It may sound like an over reaction but i felt like collapsing to tears. My eyes wanted to shed tears so badly but I held them back. It was very hard. And no way in hell did i liked it.

She mentioned that we can still be contributors and our names will appear on the paper to give us some credit. Hello?? What was she thinking? What she said definitely didn't help me feel better. It was like what we call a consuelo de bobo. Like a consolation prize for a loser. My spirit was crushed and my pride was torn into pieces. I tried to put them back together by thinking that their missing out a great writer but I just felt like a liar to myself. I feel very bad. Self-pity...shiit..

I keep on questioning if whether or not I deserved to be in this situation. I can't blame anyone else but myself. It was me who was mentally blocked and allowed stupidity to take over. Remembering what happened makes me cringe and feel like barfing. It was so embarassing. I mean only the two of us were not qualified.

The only thing that makes me still want to go on is the fact that when I inform people that I wasn't qualified, they wonder why. At least other people recognize my talent :p I am not bragging or anything but if I deserve to get in. It is just a matter of chance. Perhaps the folks who got in was very interested with the topic that their ideas overflowed. Maybe it just wasn't meant for me. Evrything happens for some crappy reason.

Basta... my time will come. You'll see.

ps.. don't I deserve to get in? judge my talent by my blog and read my past posts. Leave your answer on my CBOX. xoxo

2006-06-18T07:03:00.000+08:00

The stupidity of Charisse

Oh my fuckin' gash!! We just had the screening for our school paper and i totally messed up. Hello?? Like what's wrong with me? The topic was really easy. What qualities should a youth posses in this moderntime? But I was in an OFF mode. I was experiencing those crappy block outs. God.. I am so stupid. I wrote one hell of a piece of crap.!! I am so sure that Im not going to get in. Well so much fror being a staff member :'C If i dont get in, its there loss not mine. haha. :p

Anyway, I am happy because my study habits are progresssing. YAAAY.. I even study even there is nothing to study.Nahaha. It feels good to realize that yourself is improving. Oh.. and by the way have I told you that I sleep not past 12 midnight? I sleep at around 10:30 to 11 pm since school started. I feel good vibes towards this new school year. I just hope that my vibes are right. (Usually, my vibes are never right) Another thing, I also eat healthy. For the past 5 days, all I eat for breakfast is quaker oatmeal :D There is nothing much to blog about. So I'll say goodbye now. Tootles.!!

2006-06-14T08:25:00.000+08:00

First Day Fuck

Okay, okay.. I know I shouldn't be blogging right now because school started and I should be serious but heck.. whatever. All we did today was clean our very clean and dust-free classroom and meet the same shizzy faces all over again. There are ALOT of changes. ALOT. Our subject periods will last for 1 freaking hour. 1 hour!! My Gash! I could barely last a 40 minute class and now... haay. Our classroom location also changed. We are now on the second floor. Yes. We are away from civilization.Uh-huh. On the brighter side, I will shed some pounds from climbing the stairs.

But the whole thing is not that bad. Well at least I think it is. Actually, today was a good day. Probably the best first day I ever had. I used to hate first days but I kinda liked this day. I laughed alot and had a fun time with friends. Especially Luigi...which is our Chairman.haha. :P I am just hoping that everything will fall on their places. Well... actually not really. Because If everything will fall on their places, I will still be rank 20. (Yes, i think that's my proper place) And I so do not want that place. Its Hell!! So I will just hope that some things will fall on their proper places AND some won't. YAAAAY!!

I promise (ehem) that I will be in the top 10. Oh yeah I will be. Go Bitch!!!

2006-06-12T11:30:00.000+08:00

School jitters

Unfortunately, (with a little bit of fortune) the day after tomorrow will be the first day of school. It’s the big day. And probably the loudest day of the whole school year. I can already imagine how the day will go. People here and there will be screaming excitement at the reunion with their friends and have the adrenaline rush of it all. I plan to be fashionably late and create a grand entrance to make a first impression. Is that right? Hahaha. No. Seriously. I want to be a bit late so when I arrive, I won’t be looking for my friends since everyone is already there. Yaay. I don’t want to wait, you know.

I am not that thrilled to be in school again. But I'm used to the thought that sooner or later, I will be stuck in a classroom so might as well be open to the idea. whatever. Wait, what attitude is this?? I want to be in school!!! ... and study..er.. and stay up late studying... uhm.. do assignments and be frustrated. YAAAY! Back to school..Back to school..Back to school.

Seriously, I will do good this school year. Just read my past post entitled I am a tough Chick.
I wrote there all my plans and goals. Because you know, I really have to be goal-oriented. Alright. That's it. Till next time... if there is a next time.

PS. What will I miss most from summer??
My sister Abby. I spent most of my time with her and did what sisters do.Hahaha. I'll surely miss our sharing of ideas and 18 year-old talks. Love ya biatch.

2006-06-07T07:11:00.000+08:00

Eerie Silence

I couldn't stand this effin silence that is so creeping into our empty house right now. Yes. I am alone at the moment. Eating bread smudged with melted butter and lonely. I am very bored. I have nothing to do. The Queen of Mouths (my mother) is currently in Manila.My other sis and pop are my only companions. I don't even think I can call them companions since they don't talk. As if the three of us are invincible. Andrea's texting all the time and Papa's snoring most of the day. I tried to call my friends but sad to say their not home. Man. Why is everyone leaving??

To make things worse, I couldn't sleep at night. Hello?? What the hell is wrong with me? Maybe I have insomnia or something. I tried to sleep early last night (around 10pm) to train myself to discontinue being nocturnal but I just can't do it. It is very hard to change your lifestyle just in a snap. I mean I am a night person and definitely not an early bird.

I could not believe I am going to say this but... I want to go to school. I am so bored at home and just want to do something instead of just sleeping and eating.

Speaking of school, this coming days, I will file a leave of absence. Yep. I may not be able to blog that often. I am just going to give updates and blah blah. Well, that is if you care.

2006-06-05T04:35:00.000+08:00

Not so fairytale ending

Oh my freaky golly!! I am so pissed at Sky Cable. I mean I conditioned my mind to relax last night and enjoy PBB Big night but what the heck?? All I can see on TV were effin gray sparks or what you call it. Thanks a lot Sky Cable. All I can say is .... uhm.. never mind. (too profane)

My sister's left a few hours ago. With a heavy heart I bid farewell. Pat and I are chatting right now. Talking about something.

Oh WAIT!! I know something. I know Mikee's blog. Yeah. That guy from PBB. Anyway check it out!!!

www.meltingpen.blogspot.com

oops.. sorry Mikee. I am just a gossip queen.

2006-06-04T07:41:00.000+08:00

Fillin' up the spaces

Okay, considering the fact that I made a horrible horrible post this morning (yes, the one you see below entitled "Dont Say goodbye. Say Goodnight") I will fill up my stupidity by giving you very good meaningful song lyrics courtesy of www.lyricsmansion.com . It's the song Breaking Free from the Disney movie High School Musical. I first heard it over the radio. The singers are not-so-good singers. I even thought the woman in the song was Hilary Duff. Yeah, It was that bad. Sorry Hilary. Anyway, read it.

Breaking Free

Were soaring.. flying .There is not a star in heaven that we cant reach
If were trying so were breaking free
You know the world can see us in a way that is different than who we are
Creating space between us til were separate hearts
But your faith it gives me strength.Strength to believe

Can you feel it building like a wave the ocean just cant control
Connected by a feeling in our very souls
Rising til it lifts us up so every one can see

Ohhhh running
Climbing to get to that place
To be all that we can be
Now is the time
So we are breaking free

More than hope
More than faith
This is true
This is fate

And together
We see it coming
More than you
More than me

Not a want but a need
Both of us breaking free.

Aww. I just love it. Anyway, I don't know how life would be now that Andrea and I are the only ones left. It's just depressing. Especially that I bonded very much with Abby. We're homebuddies. Everything is not what it's used to be. Yeah. Change is definitely inevitable.

2006-06-04T00:43:00.000+08:00

Don't say Goodbye. Say Goodnight.

Currently listening:
Island in the Sun by Weezer

Today I'll be saying goodbye to my sisters. Specifically Angela and Abby. They'll be leaving tomorrow for Manila en route UP Diliman. I know, It's depressing. But I'm used to it. Used to people leaving me. :'C I'm only joking. The next time we'll see each other will be 138 days from now. Yeah.. I counted it. Well... from four we are now down to two. Andrea and moi are the only ones left here. The house is getting emptier and emptier year by year. Which means more chores for the two of us. Dang. I so want to be in college right now. Have freedom and blah blah.

Anyway, as ya'll notice I changed my effin layout. Finally. I was getting tired of pink. At first I encountered lots of problems with the layout I chose. But my magical powers sorted them out. I know it seems like it's not me but I totally like it. Simple yet Classy. Plus there are no individual links. I used to like those links for the blog item, profile, and archive but the direction of the wind changed and I dislike them now.

Currently listening:
Hips Dont lie by Shakira

Wait, I also have to say goodbye to the PBB Teen housemates. Todays their "fairytale ending" as they call it. Well goodbye folks. Ciao. I will type more later. Promise!

2006-06-01T06:04:00.000+08:00

Cut Throat

Surprise,surprise I have a new haircut. But why surprise? Because to those who are clueless, I am a bit scared of haircuts. As much as possible I run away from those nasty scissors. Well, I have been pretty successful in doing so since the last time I hade a haircut was a year and 5 months ago. But everything changed yesterday. I faced it.

The reason behind all these is because of my mother. She always supervises my haircut. You know, telling the hairstylist to make it really short and blah blah blah. So.. I end up in total humiliation. I mean a haircut can change your life. Agree? If you don't, just imagine yourself bald. How would you feel? Hair is indeed our crowning glory.

Anyway, sitting there in front of a mirror watching a person cutting your hair was scarry. Really.
It is for me. I could see the hairstylist cutting big chunks of hair. My heart literally skipped a beat. Half way through the whole process, I felt relaxed and thought that everything will turn out right. But then, the antagonist (my mother) called the salon and told the hairstylist to make it really short. Oh my gosh. I was shaking. Its a good thing the hairstylist is not obedient. Haha.

In the end I have a well... an okay haircut. Not a favorite but its good.

ps. Well, as you actually see... I haven't changed my skin yet. It is just that Im encountering a lot of problems regarding the new skin. Shit. F*ck.

oops..sorry 'bout that. Tootles.

2006-05-30T06:30:00.000+08:00

Pink Fetish is so Yesterday

Holy crap. After just a month and a half, I am changing my skin again. Which means a lot of trouble.Well I just woke up one sunny day and my love for the color pink suddenly disappeared. Miracles really do happen. Another holy crap. In less than two weeks we'll be all back to the disgusting walls of our lousy school. Wait, what kind of attitude am i posing?? Okay okay.. school is back...Yaaay!! (sarcasm) Whatever.

Back to the change of skin... My new skin will be ready in no time. I'm still fixing it. Because you know, there's a lot of work involved in making a blog. A LOT of work. Plus, I still need to go to effin internet cafes to go online. Our internet connection is pretty sick lately. And worse, I just find it hard to concentrate on what Im doing since bitchy people are blabbing their mouths off in the vicinity. Holy Crap infinity.

I know i know, I sound like a grandma with all my grouchiness but what can I do?? What can a GIRL do?? If you were in my shoes you'd feel the same way.

You may not understand what the hell Im typing right now but there are alot of things I can't put here. There are just so many emotions in me. Whatever.

Oh by the way, I can't believe it but I am so hooked on PBB Teen. I'm not the kind of person that obsesses with some crappy thing. But I love it. Gash, I sound really cheap. I take it back. I hate them!!!

2006-05-23T17:07:00.000+08:00

Late surfing

It is 2:06 am on my clock right now and I am here...blogging. Well, as you know it, Internet is free during the wee hours of the morning. So here I am. I am currently looking at very pretty pictures at www.deviantart.com. Their deviations are so amazing. I am also catching up some fashion shizz at www.closettherapyblog.com. God, I have hundreds of mosquito bites right now.

2006-05-23T06:28:00.000+08:00

Going on 30

This thing youre reading now is my * drumroll * 30th post. Yep. For four months I have created 30 emotional entries full of teenage angst. Wow. I have come a long way. Well this 30th post is nothing special. It is just the same old thing where in I tell the world how empty my days are. They are you know. I have not blogged for the past 6 days since there was totally nothing to blog about. I feel like I am just floating in this river of life. But since I am online, I might as well just type something. So I am updating you what’s new in my world.

First of all... I have to cross out Season 3 of The OC in my wishlist. Ta-dah!! It finally arrived in the Philippines. Its pilot episode aired in ETC last Tuesday. The episode was very heavy in drama. I admit I am sort of disappointed about it. I mean I waited for the 3rd season for like 6 months and the episode was not that impressive. I am starting to like One Tree Hill better than The OC. Oh... sorry OC guys.

Second...I am very pissed about this media hype towards The Da Vinci Code. Hello?? Why do they have to rate it 18?? It is after all a fictional movie. I have read the book and there is nothing to fuss about. I bet the folks who have watched the movie are pretty disappointed. I have read the reviews of movie critics and they are not that happy. At the end of the day...only one person will be laughing his head off… the f*cking Dan Brown.

Third, I am totally digging Weezers new MTV. It is Island in the Sun. Its hot. Loves it. I am an official fan of Weezer.

Fourth, I feel anxious whenever I remember that schools starting in 20 days. Come to think of it I think it’s not going to be that bad. Agree?? Heck. Whatever.

ps. Starting today, my text colors will be black. Im tired of pink. :/

2006-05-19T05:08:00.000+08:00

I am a tough Chick

After a depressing,heart breaking million years, I am blogging again. Alleluia!! I am so happy that Im back on track. Well everything happens for a reason and the reason behind my absence is because our free unlimited Internet has expired. Can you believe it?? Well I couldnt at first. I had a violent reaction. I kept on connecting and connecting and connecting and I ended up failing. I was very sad. I was like Merlin finding for Nemo. You see Internet is a big part of me. I have a second life in the World Wide Web. Now that that crap has expired we have to go on prepaid which means limited hours of surfing. And I certainly do not want to live with such limitations. But as I have said earlier, everything happens for a reason. Perhaps this limitation thing Im going through is to make me realize that I was becoming an internet addict. Ala surfaholic. I really have to let reality sink in that I shouldnt revolve around the internet. Friendster, Blogger, multiply, blah blah blah… All of them are pieces of crap. I guess I can call this whole thing an intervention.

Not just an intervention for my www addiction but also for my school attitude. I have been thinking for quite a long time now that I should seriously progress and improve in terms of grades. I mean I totally wasted my sophomore year. It was a year of fun, friends and distraction. Well I have now all the fun I could get. Im going to be better this school year. No crushes, no Internet, no TV and most certainly no more sleeping past 12 midnight. Im going to train myself to live a simple life. It may sound like a lot of drastic changes in my lifestyle but if I dont do this, when will I?? Its now or never. I realized that my physical health has become a hindrance for me to concentrate on my goal. I mean, how can you focus on the discussion when you just want to sleep?? Sigh. I am also planning not to sit close to my friends because yall now what we girls do. Were gonna gossip and blab the whole day.

Im having second thoughts if I can do what Im blabbing here but I believe I can. Last time, I bought a fortune cookie at Chowking and the message says:

You can achieve anything as long as you set you mind to it. All you have to do is to start.

Dang. It is so true. Anyway, I gotta go. Tootles.

2006-05-06T06:22:00.000+08:00

Gave me the Chills

I don't know how but yesterday, at around 11 pm, Pat, Steph, Dee,Gela,Abby,Kara and me were all sitting on Kara's bed. We were talking 'bout private things. Too private to mention here. And you know what happened next? The bed suddenly folded or shall I say cracked in half. We all shouted at the top of our lungs. I say the bed afterwards and noticed that it was metal!?? Wtf? So how and why? Can Science explain it? Well, we were sitting a circle position. All our weight were distributed on both sides of the bed. Whatever.

2006-05-05T05:39:00.000+08:00

Parting Day

Today will be the last day of Pat and Steph here in bacolod. They'll be going home tomorrow. It sucks real bad. I will definitely miss them. We bonded so much for the past 2 weeks. All those slumber parties, movie marathons, girl talks... haay. They're not just my cousins. They're my best friends and sisters. Plus points because we're related. But you know, being sisters doesn't mean that you should be blood relatives, right? We shared alot of memories together.

Right now, im busy with my new site in Multiply. Multiply is the best. I think it's even better than Blogger. You can upload videos, music and pictures. I am making an online photo album. The computer is very overloaded with pictures so I need a place to store them. You can visit it but it's still under construction.
http://iampaparazzi.mutiply.com

Oh by the way, I am also starting a brand new diary. Maybe I'll post hollywood gossip and fashion next week if I find the time. Damn, the internet speed is really low so I find it hard to upload pictures. Anyway Tootles! :D

2006-05-02T11:58:00.000+08:00

The Last of Summer

I have been freakingly gone for a while. The past week was really hectic. Well today is May 1. The first day of May. And must i say, the end of summer? Yeah. It is the end of summer. Want proof? It is raining today. How depressing. Just 30 more days and we're back to torture. Haay...
why is summer just 2 months when school is 10. Life is totally unfair.

Anyway, I was really busy because my cousins from far away, distantlands came to Bacolod. Talk about socializing, I just had to give more time to them than blogging. They came home to be present in my sister's debut. So my absence was all because of Abby's 18th birthday. Preparing the debut was very stressful. I will kill myself if my mom would give me a debut. NO WAY!! I mean the f*cking formal expensive party is all about you. Everyone's attention and eyes are on you. That is so freaky. You, you and you. Euw. Being 18 is way more freaky.

Here are the things I did for the past few days.

April 20
Pat, Steph and the gang arrived. We went out. At first, I felt akward being with them. We barely talked the whole dinner. We just said our hi's and hello's. Afterwards we went to their hote, The Sylvia Manor. It was nice. The interior is sort of Asian inspired. There, we broke the ice and we started to talk real things. Pat and Steph decided to sleep at our crib. We had a slumber party. At around 3 am, we hit the sacks.

April 21
We just stayed at home and watched good TV.

April 22 and 23
I forgot. Oh wait, we went to Kara's house and hung out. Nothing more.

April 24
My other cousins came here. We practiced the whole day our "cotilion" for Abby's debut the next day. We danced to the classical tune of a certain song from Final Fantasy 8. We made the actions and shook our booty. Pat, Steph, Leslie, Kara, Andee and I had a girl talk about... well, girl stuff. I noticed that as years pass by, our girl talks also mature. We just don't talk about clothes, makeup and boys but we also tackle serious things like high school, family matters and weight issues. My cousins are good conversationalists. Love them. Later that evening, we went to thist secluded place called "Manokan". Lol. It was a place for roosters. You know, cockfighting. Haha. The oldies are obssessed with roosters so we checked out their humble abode. Whatever.

April 25 to 26
THE BIG DAY!!! It was Abby's 18th birthday. After all those reservations and gown fittings, they all came down to this day. We had our makeup and hair styling at Business Inn. The makeup was really gorgeous. We all looked like celebrities. No kidding. We wore our gowns aferwards. Mine was a lilac tube gown. It was hot. Later on the party started and everything just settled to their places. It was a very memorable night. The venue was nice (Business Inn), the food was deluctable and we all looked pretty.Check out my frienster and see a couple of pics. The party lasted at around 12:30 am. We went to The Sylvia Manor to sleep. Well, we didn't actually sleep. Pat and I spent the whole morning chatting. We stayed at their most expensive suite and there was a 24/7 internet connection. Oh god, we slept at 6 am. Why did we even bothered to sleep?? LOL. At 8 am we ate breakfast at their Cafe. We had pancakes. After that, we all went home and slept a real sleep.

April 27
I totally forgot.

April 28
I slept the whole day.

April 29
We went to Panaad.God, the people there were countless. I wonder why. The place was boring anyway.

April 30
We went mall-hopping. First, to Robinson's then second, to Gaisano. We visited the National Bookstore and I drooled over the beautiful books. Whenever I visit National, my head starts to ache and my vision whirls. Maybe because I am just inlove with the good books they're selling. Right now, I am dying to read "Five people you meet in Heaven". Some says it's really meaningful while others comment that it's not that impressive. Well, I got to try it.

May 1
We went swimming at Palmas Del Mar. The place looked the same a year ago. Just a few developments. That's just about it.

It has been a long week and I feel very exhausted. Pat and Steph will be leaving on Wednesday.I just hate saying goodbye. Anyway, my fingers are already sore of typing. See you next time. Tootles!!! :D

2006-04-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

Lovely Day

I woke up early this day, took a fresh morning bath and immediately faced the computer. Well, here I am. Blogging. Yesterday was a very lonely day. Electricity and water went out. I can still remember how things happened so fast. I was watching Average Joe 4 when the cable suddenly disappeared.The TV displayed gray sparky streaks or something. I felt bummed of course. I expected it to come back after a little while but the TV shut down. I opened a faucet and nothing was coming out of it. I just hated it. Terrible terrible day. I wanted to sleep the whole day but you can hardly sleep when a gallon of sweat is dripping from your face. Electricity went back at 5 pm. Now I know, I can't live without cable TV.

Oh well, as you can see, I changed my blog layout. My old one was too shabby. What was I even thinking when I decided to use it? The color was so not me and the tagboard looked outdated. It was a plain jane. I grew tired of it.
The current blogskin I am using is totally rockin'. The pastel shade of pink gives it a "home-y" feeling. Plus, the entire layout is very organized. There are individual links for the entries, profile, and tagboard. Not to mention the display space is big enough for the pictures I'll be posting. How cool is that?? Of course, I got it from www.blogskin.com . Get awesome. Visit blogskin now.

Below are some of the other skins I tried to choose from.

This one is nice but the white background makes it look all empty and boring.

I find this one too childish. The display space is too small. My sister is using this blogskin.

This skin is pretty cool but it has this "dark aura". There is also no space for a tagboard.

Speaking of tagboard, I am now using a cbox. It's prettier. If you're planning to make a blog, I suggest you use a cbox. Tagboards are really boring. www.cbox.ws

Hey, why don't you try mine and post a message. Anyway, I'll try to post more later. Tootles!!

2006-04-18T07:41:00.000+08:00

Guilty Confession

Haay.I am back. I was gone for quite a long time. I gave up blogging as a Lenten sacrifice.It was the least thing I could have done for all the bitchyness I did this Lent. I failed to go to mass, ate meat during Fridays and I was a jackass who was too lazy to pray. Just remembering how sinful I am makes me feel all guilty again. I felt the same way when I happened to watch a little portion of "The passion of Christ" last Good Friday. Yeah. Just a small portion of it was enough to make me realize how "un-Christian" I am.

I admit, I am one of those who are struggling to be a devout Catholic. But somehow, its pretty hard to be one. Sure, I go to massbut whenever I do, my mind travels to Neverland. I also confessmonthly but the moment I step out of the church, I return to my evil ways again. Worse, without realizing it, I end up praying selfish prayers.

Oh my golly...guilt..that is what I feel now. I have been really bad. Oh well, the best thing to do now is to move forward and try to be better. My starting point is to attend mass regularly. The rest will follow. I'll end this post with this statment:
"Everyday is a new Challenge of Transformation".

2006-04-11T06:17:00.000+08:00

This week is Holy

Yesterday marked the start of Holy Week. It was Palm Sunday and i missed it! I was sick yesterday. I was bedridden the whole morning. I felt like dying. But eventually, my healing powers came out and I am perfect right now. Anyway, I totally think it's time for some gossip right now so here are the scoops:

The Spears family recently had a family reunion to celebrate Jamie Lynn's 15th birthday. Everyone was all dressed up and having fun. I love Jamie's dress worn with those white flats. Jamie's fashion is so like Brit's but in this pic, she's rockin'. To tell you, I think Jamie is a lame actress. I hate her. I hate all the Spears. That's all.. :D

The Olsen twins are again out in LA. Mk is disguised as an old man together with her piggy,bald bodyguard. She looks awful. She is a stick figure. I like her green Balenciaga bag though.
Ashley is not disguised however. Her shoes are caliente. As you can see, the Olsen twins love fat bodyguards. Lol.

I honestly think Rachel Bilson as a girlfriend is such a brat. Look at the picture!!! It was taken at THE OC set which I am a big fan of. But they look cute together. Check out Adam's hawt hawt underwear expose.

Look at this ridiculous picture of Lindsay Lohan wearing a skull cap. She looks very skinny. You know what, I suddenly became anti-stupid girls after watching Pink's hot new MTV. She is so true about the whole video.

Pictures from Pinkisthenewblog.com

Anyway, I managed to watch 13 movies last week. Courtesy of Video City and HBO. Here's the list....

*Flightplan
*The Notebook
*Sacred Planet
*Mr. & Mrs. Smith
*A lot like Love
*The Island
*Just like Heaven
*Black Knight
*The Cave
*Gothika
*Chasing Liberty
*Mermaids

Among them, my top 5 faves are: The notebook, A lot like Love, The Island, Just like Heaven and Gothika.
Chasing Liberty is over rated. I don't like it. The ending is so fecth. I'm very disappointed.
The Island is just phenomenal. The plot is amazing. God, I love it. Its one of my favorite movies.
A lot like Love's soundtrack is very nice. I am currently downloading it.
So that's it for now. I still have to take a bath..wuhahaha..Ciao. :P

2006-04-05T00:30:00.000+08:00

Same old

I know I mentioned that I want this summer to be different but somehow, things just don't turn out the way I want them to. It is as if I live in a cycle that goes on and on. My summer days are quite the same and stereotypical. What a Bummer!!!

Anyway, last Monday, I happened to stumble upon this really cool show. It's "Project Runway". I've heard about it before but I thought it was just another reality show. Well it is but I love it.

It's a show dedicated to give designer hopefuls a shot at fame and fortune as they compete in weekly challenges and are given all the resources of a top designer to prepare a competitive runway show for the next New York Fall Fashion Week. The weekly challenges are really interesting. Yesterday, they were tasked to create the dreamy wedding gowns of their model clients. Gosh, models are such self-absorbing airheads.This week, they'll make swimsuits that can also be used as evening wear. Not to mention, they are only given 48 hours to complete their wardrobe. I guess I found the show that is perfectly for me.

Today, my sister Abby will be flying home at 4 pm. Woohooo!!! I miss her so much. She's in college.Specifically in UP Diliman.How cool is that? She's the Smartypants in the bunch. I haven't seen her for like 3 months. She comes home during Christmas and Sembreaks only.
Well, at least now that she's home, they're something to do....gossip!

2006-03-31T17:48:00.000+08:00

Damn UV Rays

Every inch of my skin is burned.Just a single touch and Im left with a stupid stinging sensation.
We had our farewell party yesterday in a place where the sun really bursts. We had so much fun. And I am very very tan right now. Unfortunately, my parther in crime, Nadine, was not present. Butit was okay. It was still fun with the rest of the folks. Now I realized that I do really love our section especially my friends. It may sound supid but I gotta admit, I miss school. Well, except the homework, quizzes, and waking up in the morning at 6 am. I guess I just miss being with my friends and messin' around.

Anyway, I watched "The Notebook" today. The movie indeed exceeded my high expectations. It was full of heavy drama but in a good way. The story was the best love story ever. I totlly love it. Tears were just streaming down my tears. I tried to hold them back but I guess, I just can't.
After the movie, I pretended like nothing happened.

I really think following summer days will be lazy and hot. Bored!!! I need some excitement.
;C

2006-03-29T14:39:00.000+08:00

The Hilton's trying into the animation world?

I've read from gossip sites that socialites Paris and Nicky Hilton are creating their own animation series based from their own life. Here is a picture of their cartoon counterpart.

I could not imagine how parents would react to this. Like the picture says "HIDE YOUR CHILDREN!". Oh, just thinking of how the animators would draw the making out sessions of the Hiltons make me barf in my mouth. Seriously, why waste time and precious air waves on drawing those dumb blondes?

2006-03-29T09:49:00.000+08:00

Pictures from the last days of my sophomore year

Here are some pictures with my friends taken during the last weeks of my school. :D

"Haay, gwapa gid ya samon!"

"Hmm, grazelle chancing ;p"

"Cooking our very first lasagna."

"Happee day with Christian."

"Tres chicas guapa"

"Pili lang ah."

"Left or right?"

"Gossipists."

"Come'n and get me."

"Abaw.Yuhum mayo."

2006-03-29T02:13:00.000+08:00

From runway to celebrities

The Spring/Summer NY Fashion Week 2006 was held last February and celebs crowded Bryant Park, New York. They are perhaps, the designer's no. 1 clients. So here are some designer looks worn by celebrities. They're so fine. My favorites are Jessica's and Kirsten's.

From Monique Lhullier to Jessica Alba

From Gucci to Mischa Barton

From Dolce & Gabbana to Hilary Duff

From Dolce & Gabbana to Lindsay Lohan

From Derek Lam to Rachel Bilson

From Chloe to Ashlee Simpson

From Alexander Mcqueen to Jessica Simpson

From Lacroix to Kirsten Dunst

2006-03-26T00:24:00.000+08:00

Burned and happy

I was fried under the scorching summer heat yesterday. It was my first summer gig. We went to Nadine's and made a splash. We had so much fun. Even if it means i'll get a tan which I am avoiding. But of course, I had to undergo alot of twist and turns with my mother in order for me to come to her Pool Party.

Anyway, at the party, we did many stupid things. Like they say, "girls justwant to have fun". A friend of mine wore only her bra.Hahahaha.(I can't mention her name or else she'll kill me.)
Also, we had a "cheese stick issue". We ate the wrong cheese sticks. Oh and another one, Mary grace, Grazelle and moi went inside this inflatable circular something (salbabida) which it's capacity was only for a single person. We were like sardines. Then, we decided to climb up out of the pool and dive all together. God, it was so fun. We couldn't. It took us 10 minutes in order to stand up. It was so hard because your body movement should coordinate with one another. It's even harder when your laughing your heads off. I was crying, because of laughing. When we finally managed to stand up, it was pure bliss. We walked together toward the poolside. The Nadine pushed us and we crashed into the pool. Alot of water went inside my nose. But it was fun. Bonding moments are amazing.

You'll just understand when I post the pictures here. Oh, and the video too.

Right now, I am alone here in our house. I haven't eaten breakfast yet. Im too tired to do so. Worse, i have to do some household chores later on. Anyway, gtg!! Mwah!

2006-03-22T18:05:00.000+08:00

Summer is in, baby!

School is officially signing off...for the meantime. And the spotlight is now on the sun. Really. It is super hot. Anyway, I added alot of stuff here today. Asa you can see, they're all summer related. I want to bring summer in my blog. Actually, I am planning to change my blog layout. I want to make my own personalized layout. One that screams CHARISSE. But unfortunately, I'm not that technogeeky to be able to know how to.

My past summers were all not worth remembering. All of them were the typical, stereotype summers wherein you swim,soak in the sun, and get your skin fried. It is just too depressing.
I want to have a fun time. Perhaps go to beach parties, shop and find a summer job. But my very very strict 'rents won't allow me to. Sometimes, I think they're the hindrances to my happiness. ;C

Today, was the final day of exams. We had Socials, Health and Music. I swear, I'm going to flunk music. I mean, nobody studies that subject.Really. Plus, it's like 5% of your final grade. So I didn't study the stupid subject and I don't care.Not at all. My sister flunks that subject too but look at her now, she's in UP Diliman.
This examination, I cut down my caffeine intake. I drank coffee only once. Ha! Also, I didn't really work hard this period. Besides, it's the end of the schoolyear.

In the afternoon, we practiced our PE practical exam which is a folk dance. I think folk dances are a bit weird. Especially the one with those hollow black circular objects placed on the knees, shoulders and etc. We're dancing Tiklos and Sakuting.
Here's my summer plans for the rest of the week:

*Belated Pool Party at Nadine's
*As much as possible, avoid tan.
*Plan my summer outfits.
*Find a job.
*fix our chaotic room.
*Sleep. The last time I slept earlier than 10 pm was when i was still in kindergarten.
*Have a haircut. My hair style is so outdated.

And that's it.I guess Im not fullybooked this summer so I will have more time to post entries in my blog. Anyway, i'll post later. Ciao!

2006-03-22T10:02:00.000+08:00

Hotta Hotta

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Summer has finally arrived! Oh yeah! School year '05-'06 is now just a distant memory. Buh-bye cruel homeworks and f*ckin' long quizzes. Well, at least for 2 months. Anyway, this summer i want to be progressive. You know, not just spending all my time in siesta and be a boob tube. I want to do something fun. Something worth remembering. I'll think about it later on. For the meantime, I'll just breathe.

This summer is a fashion show for me. So, for the next following weeks, i'll be posting paparazzi pictures of hollywood celebs and well, criticize them.Haha. Also, I'll put photos of what Im wearing and what's hot. Here's a piece of it.

Olsen Fashion

Oh, what's that Mk? Stealing an urn from someone's funeral? Well, you look like a thief to me.
With that hideous boots you're wearing. Please take off those leggings. Euw. Reminds me of leprechauns.
Mark: C

Sweatshirts have always been regarded as the favorites of fashion victims. But in this pic, Mk looks good on it. Compliments a "out and about" look. The tight leggings (again?) worn with that blue pump just does'nt work at all. Mk, seriously, what's with you and leggings?
Mark: B-

This is Ashley out in Beverly Hills. Cool. Very retro. Loves it.
Mark: A

The twins in blazers. Blazers are normally for office wear but they pulled it off. Chic and corporate.
Mark: A-

Mk out with a friend.
Is that a fur coat? I hate those. Just thinking that an innocent animal payed his life to make that petty fur coat. But anyway, I absolutely love her front-opened pump. The heels are thick but really nice.
Mark: B+

The Olsen fashion is not that bad. Well, maybe Mk's is. But Ashley is chic. She's a vintage vixen.
And besides, we can't blame Mk. She lives in New York. You can wear anything and everything there. Plus, she's filthy rich. If you wear garbage, people will love it just because you're rich. If you have the dollars, you are automatically a trendsetter.

2006-03-16T13:04:00.000+08:00

Friends and moi

Luigi and Charisse

Grazelle and Charisse

Grazelle and charisse

Nadine and Charisse

Charisse, Sophie and nadine

Sophie, charisse and nadine

2006-03-14T18:30:00.000+08:00

Almost over

Hahaha. This week is the last one for school year '05-'06!! Woohoo! My long wait is almost over. But life, as you know it, comes with lots of twists and turns. Before happiness, I will undergo first the torture of examinations. :'C Anyway, since my sophomore year is coming to an end, I will make sure it's last few days will be a bomb. And i mean it.

Yeah, yeah.. As if. How can I make this week a bomb when I flunked our Algebra Seatwork yesterday? And today, we had another freakin' one and I am keeping my fingers crossed for an acceptable mark. Oh well. Lazy algebra afternoons will be memories in a couple of days.

Here's what happened two days ago:

Sunday
Black out the whole day but luckily, the lights came back just in time for One Tree Hill. Whoah! It's a new season! Finally, it arrived in the Phil. It was airing already in the states since summer of last year. The pilot episode was oh-so-dramatic. I loved every moment of it. Peyton's got this very retro hairstyle. Brooke came back from summer transformed into a b*tchier b*tch. Haley returned to Tree Hill and perhaps, is regreting for leaving it in the first place. Nathan and Lucas are still very lucious cuties. Summer is complete with OTH.

Monday
I cooked breakfast( Part of our weekly routine). As I have mentioned earlier, we had this seatwork in Algebra. It was so spirit-crushing. Really. Whenever Math crosses my mind, I suddenly feel weak and helpless. I slept at 2 am last night so I couldn't help it but to doze off in class. Good for me, it was our Biology class. EVERYONE sleeps in Biology. Back to the 2 am sleep, you might be wondering why a young girl like me sleeps in the we hours of the morning. Well, I am too. Hmm.. maybe because it's a result of my crammimg sessions.Haha. I love cramming.

2006-03-12T10:44:00.000+08:00

Empty week

This week was like blah! It was so fast, It felt like just a single day. I don't like this week. It's irksome and a pain in the butt. Anyway, next week is examinations.Again. I know. What a bummer. It will be the last and will also be the most tiring. I am really not in the mood for school right now since summer is kicking off.So, I expect low marks this grading period. Heck, I don't really care. Summer here I come.

I am really busy today. I went to school and did our backgrounds for our newscasting. It will be our finals for our speech subject. At this moment I am eating almond cheese cake (yum yum! try eating at Calea) and doing our script. Duh. That is what I always do. I am "the scriptwriter". Well, i love my job.

When i opened my blog, I saw the tagboard was full of messages. All smiles for me! I am glad that people finally realize the existence of this crap. There was one from Pat and another from April. Thanks to you! C;

By the way, I am a free girl now. I got over my "issues". I eat whatever I want. Hahaha. To tell you, even though I diet or overeat, my weight still remains 100 pounds. Isn't it nice?

2006-03-06T19:16:00.000+08:00

Give me some music!

Let's give it up for Weezer with Perfect Situtation.

Weezer - Perfect Situation

Provided by VideoCodes4U.com

2006-03-05T11:35:00.000+08:00

Let's talk about: Bergdorf blondes by Plum Sykes

If you think Brazilian is a nationality, that PJs are pajamas, and that beyond is somewhere far away, then you have never met a Bergdorf blonde. Welcome to the glamorous world of Park Avenue princesses who careen through New York in search of the ever-elusive fiance and the perfect fake tan.

A lot of people would think, “ this book is stupid. It’s nonsense!Plain fluff stuff”. But hello? BB is a funny light read. It’s supposed to make you laugh. Not think. The Bergdorf Blondes are not meant to be taken seriously, as lets face it, in most ways, they are quite silly, but this is hilarious, & I think this is the intention of the author. I found it hilarious and playful. Reading this is like an inside look of the life of the rich and famous. If you loved sex and the city, then this one’s for you. It’s full of fashion and haute couture stuff. (the author, Plum Sykes, is a contributing editor of Vogue.) BB is a happy book. But it’s not really meaningful and deep but it is cute.

Bergdorf Blondes is an accurate and terribly funny social satire on the lives of the young, vapid, and fabulously wealthy. It's a timely and laugh-out-loud look at today's heiresses and the like whom we regularly see photographed in tabloid and style magazines.
This book is sort of mature. Not for kids under 13 or those who are close-minded. It’ll bring out your feminine side and tickle your funny bone. Also, it’s not for the clueless. Get what I mean? I give 3 and ½ stars for Bergdorf Blondes.

2006-03-02T12:40:00.000+08:00

Riding cars with strangers

Some of you may not notice but riding the jeepney is an adventure. You climb into a vehicle full of strangers and pay a fine for it. You meet people from all walks of life. And to think, this car of persons you have never known before will actually bring you back home.

I like commuting because it gives me the opportunity to think. Plus, you can feel the wind caressing your cheeks and blowing through your hair. But of course, there is always an annoying part during jeepney rides. One example is when inconsiderate people belch smoke. Euw. Really sticky. Another is when your seatmates are, well, some kind of grossie. Especially when the jeep is overloaded. You can barely breathe! Lastly, the security. You’ll never know if the cute guy in front of you is actually a kidnapper or pickpocketer .

Overall, the jeepney is cool. It is a part of the Philippine history. But of course, private rides are the coolest. No doubt about it.

2006-03-01T06:58:00.001+08:00

self-control

Im bloated. Damn, overate again! Its hard to believe that a thin girl like me would eat so much food. But believe me, it is true. My stomach will burst anytime. Haaay…

Quick recap: I got fed up from my diet and quit a week ago. After all my hardwork, I didnt even lose one single pound. My spirit was crushed. And as expected, I found comfort in food. So now, here I am feeling guilty and disappointed. I was doing so fine and was actually progressing. Today, I have made up my mind. I am starting again tomorrow since its Ash Wednesday. A day of fasting. A while ago was my turning point. We ate out and I realized that I have to break this habit. Its a matter of self-control. You see, I always eat in-between meals. I spend most of my money on them. So, when the proper mealtime comes, I loose my appetite, eat less good food and later on, munch on some unhealthy ones. I am a very bad girl.

I feel sad because people keep on criticizing me about the way I eat. (I know you are too.) Please dont. If you just know both sides of the story, youll take back your words. I am a big girl. I know what Im doing. I absolutely don’t want to end up like Nicole Richie and Hilary Duff. Anorexia is a no-no. I have my limitations. Maybe I’m just having “issues” like every other young souls out there. So, dont judge me. Hater.

2006-02-20T10:17:00.000+08:00

Prom

Today's my sister's prom. everyone's all dolled up! God, i feel very bad. I'm the ugly duckling here.!!Btw, I making a photo album on photobucket so you watch out. later!

2006-02-16T02:29:00.000+08:00

Back on the Diet Avenue

Today, I started dieting again. I mean, my fats are accumulating. They're unacceptable for a girl like moi. Plus, summer's fast approaching and I need to improve my tummy.

The sad part is, it's a breeze to build up fats and it is like learning Hebrew to lose them. For a food-lover like me, it is like murder! Food is my guilty pleasure. When I'm bored, I eat. When i pass by the fridge, I eat. When I see pictures of food, I eat. I think im overeating. Really depressing!!!

In fact, I have the worst dieting history. I have tried to diet before and they all crashed. I did improper diets. You know, the "sky flakes" and "fruitarian" diet. In the long run, I realized that I was killing myself. I was starving like a skinny little street dog. Good thing a did not end up being an anorexic bitch. Euw.

Today, I am going to have a proper and correct diet. A low-carb and obviously low-calorie one. I'll limit my calorie intake to a thousand and just eat a half cup of rice. Listing down everything that I put into my mouth is also a great thing to avoid cheating. Well, as for now, all I can do is to build up my strength so that I can say no to tempations of food. Duh. Discipline is a must!

2006-02-15T12:51:00.000+08:00

Talkin 'bout L-O-V-E

How lovely. It's valentine's day. The certain day of the year when everyone's allowed to kiss, cuddle, snuggle, and break the "innocence". Well, hope you had an enchanting hearts day. That is all I can really say. Speechless. Whoever you are, I want to give you my sweetest smoochies. Mmmuuuuwwwaaahhhh. Don't worry, I don't spread cooties. Ciao!

2006-02-12T13:06:00.000+08:00

The downfalls of exams

Finally exams are over. I can now breathe. Tell me about it, it is just so so irksome to study all day. My memory was overused. My eye bags and pimples grew like crazy. Plus, whenever it’s exams, I absolutely turn into one unhealthy chick considering the amount of caffeine I consume from the ever-stimulating Nescafe.

Last Thursday was even worse. It was the moment of truth. The results were given out. I prayed the night before. I asked God to please, please have pity on this little girl, on bended knees, (okay, I wasn’t really on bended knees. I was Indian sitting) begging for a miracle to happen. But, somehow, miracles sometimes aren’t meant to take place in just a snap. So, the fruits of my labor were, voila, totally spirit-crushing results. Disappointed, as usual. Injustice, that’s what I always get. To sum it all up, exams are hell.

Anyway, it’s all in the past now. This grading period, I’m giving my best shot (yeah right) to pull up my class rank. I mean, from 10 it became 15 and last grading period, it degraded to 16. :c I know I’m smarter than those kids. I am just well, lazy. I’m the epitome of lazy people with the “potential”. Omg. I think I’m turning into a total sloth. Pff… Complicated world.

2006-02-02T14:40:00.000+08:00

A waiting princess

Wow. Time flies really fast.Really really fast. I was just decorating our christmas tree and was building up my holiday fats and now, it's February!(sadly, I haven't lost my holiday fats. *sniff*) A while ago, I was walking down the hallways of a college building in school. I noticed there were pink hearts and cupids posted on the bulletin boards. There was even one with a boy-girl-kissing paper cut out. Love is in the air once again. Literally. Take a deep breath and you can actually smell the fragrance of love.(whatever that is.) The much awaited Valentine's day is coming. Haaay.. i feel depressed. It's Feb and i have nowhere to go. Still alone as usual. To tell you, i never liked that day. I mean, while everone's blushing and receiving roses from their beaus and being all mushy, I'm the one just sitting on a corner,observing, faking a smile and pretending to have a great time when in fact, it feels like hell. Hey, im not jealous. I just feel well, out of place.(okay,okay, i lil bit jealous.) On Feb 14, there's going to be alot of faking to do. Its gonna be a long day.Long,long day. Mr. Cupid's arrow always misses me and the lovebug doesn't feel like biting me or contaminating me with the so-called L.O.V.E epidemic.

Oh well, the loveless me. Hmmm... maybe im just the type of girl that doesn't want to kiss too many frogs because maybe, maybe she'll get cooties later on. Yeah, i hate cooties.Gross. So, on V-day, you know where to find me. I'll be in my little corner waiting. Waiting for my somewhat lost prince to finally find his way to my sad heart.
To my prince: "Im tired of being alone. So hurry and get here."